yo wassup
Currently listening to : John Hetmond & OSip -Lungomare
The song I'm listening to is simply divine. I learned a lil bit on how to mix some sogms. Nothing spectacular, still learning the transitions. Only that. I havent found the ' storytelling rythm' in my mix. I need to build up my collection first. For now I am very excited for tomorrow. Bit mixed feelings cause I'll be going with a heavy heart. Cause things did not turn out the way it should have. But anyways..that is not the focus of Melaka. The focus is to enjoy Ferry, Markus, Tydi, 16 bit Lolitas , Betsie Larkin and my all time favourite ABOVE & BEYOND. I'll be dancing to songs like Made of love for sure and possibly Lonely girl, somehow, on a good day,black sun possibly? chinook. so excited. beyond words can describe despite that tiny ache of emoness still in me. trance can cure me that night. i'm sure it can. i bought myself a ferry corsten tshirt. so excited. my fren told me i'm the trance energy. LOL trance energy, dunno does he know Trance Energy is another one of those massive raves I would like to go to. i'm babbling as usual. trance for life~
The song I'm listening to is simply divine. I learned a lil bit on how to mix some sogms. Nothing spectacular, still learning the transitions. Only that. I havent found the ' storytelling rythm' in my mix. I need to build up my collection first. For now I am very excited for tomorrow. Bit mixed feelings cause I'll be going with a heavy heart. Cause things did not turn out the way it should have. But anyways..that is not the focus of Melaka. The focus is to enjoy Ferry, Markus, Tydi, 16 bit Lolitas , Betsie Larkin and my all time favourite ABOVE & BEYOND. I'll be dancing to songs like Made of love for sure and possibly Lonely girl, somehow, on a good day,black sun possibly? chinook. so excited. beyond words can describe despite that tiny ache of emoness still in me. trance can cure me that night. i'm sure it can. i bought myself a ferry corsten tshirt. so excited. my fren told me i'm the trance energy. LOL trance energy, dunno does he know Trance Energy is another one of those massive raves I would like to go to. i'm babbling as usual. trance for life~
penner-ing
currently listening to: TATW 266
It's all over. I screwed it up. Better luck or better chance next time. When I'm not so childish and immature. When I learn to see things from people's perspective. I thought I knew but I don't. So it came back at bite me. I'm hurt. No doubt I'm hurt. I'm a paranoid bitch. Insecure. Shall I say sorry to myself then??
It's all over. I screwed it up. Better luck or better chance next time. When I'm not so childish and immature. When I learn to see things from people's perspective. I thought I knew but I don't. So it came back at bite me. I'm hurt. No doubt I'm hurt. I'm a paranoid bitch. Insecure. Shall I say sorry to myself then??
so full
currently listening to: TATW 268
I'm too full to sleep or do anything. My sis and I just had 'cum' burger at Ampang. the term 'cum' burger as much as its sounds so wrong but the term is propounded by dear friend. It is because of the gooey-ness and sheer amount of cheese melting and the egg inside your mouth. And the egg is just cook slightly and the whites of the egg is slightly fluid like and hence the equivalent to cum..ewwww...gross..are your reactions but the burger is damn good. It's like having a cholestrol packed burger orgasm in your mouth. the warm beef burger with the gooey cheese and the wetness of the egg, its just a sinful indulgence. I have not had the burger for over a year I think. At first I do not want to eat, but my sister says she's craving for it and we went to Ampang at 3.30am. That is just the stupid things we do sometimes. Now I'm so so full, and I don't think I can lie down. I think that fulfills my annual sinful indulgence of the 'cum' burger. Pardon my lnaguage on the burger but true to its name..lol
Finally I had some time to blog. Yesterday I had my evidence paper and today I had tort. The next papers are trust and land which I have more confident in. *cross fingers* . I did the best I could given my slacking this year and sincerely and genuinely hope I will pass. Next week is a busy week and I'm sure I can get through it. I need to take care of myself. I will strive to do better.
On more random updates, I watched movie with some college mates Alvin , Virata , Damian, Oazair, Don and Yee Hoong. We watched Angels and Demons. it was a good way to de-stress and zone out from the two papers. Then I went to the hospital to visit someone and to my sister's place and then back. Gosh, I'm so full..omg..I think thts all my updates for the time being. Might be slow in updating the next two weeks but I'm sure the next update will be a blast with pictures and all...Till then..ciao~
I'm too full to sleep or do anything. My sis and I just had 'cum' burger at Ampang. the term 'cum' burger as much as its sounds so wrong but the term is propounded by dear friend. It is because of the gooey-ness and sheer amount of cheese melting and the egg inside your mouth. And the egg is just cook slightly and the whites of the egg is slightly fluid like and hence the equivalent to cum..ewwww...gross..are your reactions but the burger is damn good. It's like having a cholestrol packed burger orgasm in your mouth. the warm beef burger with the gooey cheese and the wetness of the egg, its just a sinful indulgence. I have not had the burger for over a year I think. At first I do not want to eat, but my sister says she's craving for it and we went to Ampang at 3.30am. That is just the stupid things we do sometimes. Now I'm so so full, and I don't think I can lie down. I think that fulfills my annual sinful indulgence of the 'cum' burger. Pardon my lnaguage on the burger but true to its name..lol
Finally I had some time to blog. Yesterday I had my evidence paper and today I had tort. The next papers are trust and land which I have more confident in. *cross fingers* . I did the best I could given my slacking this year and sincerely and genuinely hope I will pass. Next week is a busy week and I'm sure I can get through it. I need to take care of myself. I will strive to do better.
On more random updates, I watched movie with some college mates Alvin , Virata , Damian, Oazair, Don and Yee Hoong. We watched Angels and Demons. it was a good way to de-stress and zone out from the two papers. Then I went to the hospital to visit someone and to my sister's place and then back. Gosh, I'm so full..omg..I think thts all my updates for the time being. Might be slow in updating the next two weeks but I'm sure the next update will be a blast with pictures and all...Till then..ciao~
my love letter to trance
Currently listening to: Stoneface & terminal -Stardust
I truly think trance is my love. You know how you feel when you fell in love? Or met someone you really like. The butterflies in your stomach, your heart skipped a beat, sometimes you have a slight tingle running through ur skin? That is how i feel. You cant stop smiling. That moment is magical. I think when you're in love you're in trance and vice versa..being in a state trance is like being love. Some say love is a drug, I say trance is a drug. I need to find the next high, the next trance. Words fail me on how much I love trance. Every day if i don't listen to trance, I feel not complete. my heart is not complete, my soul is not complete. people fail you, but my trance doesn't. i dunno how to explain when it reaches the trance part..my heart sure skip a bit when i listne to it..and i would like just be still for while.absorbing it all..feeling the sensation. so when people tell me trance is some drug kinda music, i feel sad..its like telling me i'm a drug junkie. i feel sad when ppl associate trance with unethical clubbing culture. they associate be as a clubber cause I love trance. i only go to clubs when international trance djs are here. i dun have a fav club and i dun have a regular club. the reason why i'm so excited bout Freedom is tht its trance djs..Ferry Corsetn, Markus Schulz and Above & Beyond. its like a big romantic date with my trance you know and at the end of the nigth i surely will have a musical orgasm!!...so i'm so in love with trance. it never fails to disappoint me. i love trance...
I truly think trance is my love. You know how you feel when you fell in love? Or met someone you really like. The butterflies in your stomach, your heart skipped a beat, sometimes you have a slight tingle running through ur skin? That is how i feel. You cant stop smiling. That moment is magical. I think when you're in love you're in trance and vice versa..being in a state trance is like being love. Some say love is a drug, I say trance is a drug. I need to find the next high, the next trance. Words fail me on how much I love trance. Every day if i don't listen to trance, I feel not complete. my heart is not complete, my soul is not complete. people fail you, but my trance doesn't. i dunno how to explain when it reaches the trance part..my heart sure skip a bit when i listne to it..and i would like just be still for while.absorbing it all..feeling the sensation. so when people tell me trance is some drug kinda music, i feel sad..its like telling me i'm a drug junkie. i feel sad when ppl associate trance with unethical clubbing culture. they associate be as a clubber cause I love trance. i only go to clubs when international trance djs are here. i dun have a fav club and i dun have a regular club. the reason why i'm so excited bout Freedom is tht its trance djs..Ferry Corsetn, Markus Schulz and Above & Beyond. its like a big romantic date with my trance you know and at the end of the nigth i surely will have a musical orgasm!!...so i'm so in love with trance. it never fails to disappoint me. i love trance...
no life.
currently listening to: gareth emery-exposure
i miss dressing up. i miss putting on my falsies and spending hours on makeup. i miss going out to party. i miss all of it. i miss dancing on the podium..
now when i sleep, i dream of studies. like today during my overslept nap, i was dreaming bout whther possessing pornographic materials is bad character under s98 CJA 2003 cause a friend told me scientifically proven people who wacth porn is more hot tempered. so in my mind was running through the arguments whether possesing porn will have relevance to a rape charge and whther the class of people is large? so i was dreaming bout tht in my mind. so sad right my life?
note: i dun agree watching porn makes ppl more hot tempered. i'm not ashamed i watch porn. i think it's normal for guys to watch it too. i'm not encouraging it but i think its a norm now like how gays are being perceived now (r v thompson)..
moving on to my mundane life, i suddenly crave for the vietnamese chicken salad at delicious. that was a really good salad, very different and tasty. and i'm craving for a cheese cake too, or a strawberry sundae. *hint**hint* lol
thts bout it, dun have much to blog also. since i have practically no life.
i miss dressing up. i miss putting on my falsies and spending hours on makeup. i miss going out to party. i miss all of it. i miss dancing on the podium..
now when i sleep, i dream of studies. like today during my overslept nap, i was dreaming bout whther possessing pornographic materials is bad character under s98 CJA 2003 cause a friend told me scientifically proven people who wacth porn is more hot tempered. so in my mind was running through the arguments whether possesing porn will have relevance to a rape charge and whther the class of people is large? so i was dreaming bout tht in my mind. so sad right my life?
note: i dun agree watching porn makes ppl more hot tempered. i'm not ashamed i watch porn. i think it's normal for guys to watch it too. i'm not encouraging it but i think its a norm now like how gays are being perceived now (r v thompson)..
moving on to my mundane life, i suddenly crave for the vietnamese chicken salad at delicious. that was a really good salad, very different and tasty. and i'm craving for a cheese cake too, or a strawberry sundae. *hint**hint* lol
thts bout it, dun have much to blog also. since i have practically no life.
i wish
Staring at the top sheet
Listening to my heart beat
Wondering how to say it
Playing over one track
Wanting you to come back
Want to have you here
Lying on a cold sheet
Jump into my car seat
Drive down to the river
Nightlight its reflecting
Somehow I'm expecting
Your voice in my ear
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Lying in the long grass
Watching as the clouds pass
Hands held in silence
Your arms right around me
Feeling glad you found me
Feeling like I'm home
Wish you would remember
April to september
Wanting to be near me
Racing for the sunrise
Staring into my eyes
You and I alone
Lay back in my own dreamplayback on a big screen
You and me together
Why give up a love found
Wish that I could write down
What you mean to me
Listening to my heart beat
Wondering how to say it
Playing over one track
Wanting you to come back
Want to have you here
Lying on a cold sheet
Jump into my car seat
Drive down to the river
Nightlight its reflecting
Somehow I'm expecting
Your voice in my ear
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Lying in the long grass
Watching as the clouds pass
Hands held in silence
Your arms right around me
Feeling glad you found me
Feeling like I'm home
Wish you would remember
April to september
Wanting to be near me
Racing for the sunrise
Staring into my eyes
You and I alone
Lay back in my own dreamplayback on a big screen
You and me together
Why give up a love found
Wish that I could write down
What you mean to me
i'm bored
Currently listening to:Cosmic gate-Sign of times
Stuff to do after the big exams:
1. Learn to mix
2. Spring clean my room
3. Manage my trance group seriously
4. Do some writing
5. Get a job back at the firm
6. Go for a holiday
7. Back to the gym
Stuff to do after the big exams:
1. Learn to mix
2. Spring clean my room
3. Manage my trance group seriously
4. Do some writing
5. Get a job back at the firm
6. Go for a holiday
7. Back to the gym
locked and tracked
Currently listening to: ASOT 402
I just got back from my sister's place. Went to there to destress and chill. I usually go there jsut to get away from my house. Just lepak there, watch some astro and talk some stupid stuff..and eat and play with her cat. I finally get to see some light in my trusts subject, tomorrow is evidence and tort for me in the library. On Baby, I'm proud of him, his new show is doing really well with guest mix and all. I love the fact taht he will send me his set for me before his actual show. I'm exclusive cause I get to preview his set first..LOL. Things are pretty much ok I guess. Been studying as hard as I could, just hope I can pass all the subjects, Things are stressed up, my face is breaking out and I don't have time to trim my eyebrows..wtf..but jsut now at my sis's place, she help to pluck my eyebrows while I flipped through the channels. so that's pretty cool. I can't stnad myself having bushy eyebrows for some reason. Maybe cause last time I had bushy eyeborws that now when I looked back, I feel geli..My stuff is piling in my room, books everywhere, notes are eveywhere and I feel kinda scared if I see my books unhighlighted. Just the kiasu in me. My days now are mugging in the library or cafes with Wai Fon and then summore studying at home... Occasional lunches with Baby...then back to studying.. I need to hang in there. And I believe I can do it!!
I just got back from my sister's place. Went to there to destress and chill. I usually go there jsut to get away from my house. Just lepak there, watch some astro and talk some stupid stuff..and eat and play with her cat. I finally get to see some light in my trusts subject, tomorrow is evidence and tort for me in the library. On Baby, I'm proud of him, his new show is doing really well with guest mix and all. I love the fact taht he will send me his set for me before his actual show. I'm exclusive cause I get to preview his set first..LOL. Things are pretty much ok I guess. Been studying as hard as I could, just hope I can pass all the subjects, Things are stressed up, my face is breaking out and I don't have time to trim my eyebrows..wtf..but jsut now at my sis's place, she help to pluck my eyebrows while I flipped through the channels. so that's pretty cool. I can't stnad myself having bushy eyebrows for some reason. Maybe cause last time I had bushy eyeborws that now when I looked back, I feel geli..My stuff is piling in my room, books everywhere, notes are eveywhere and I feel kinda scared if I see my books unhighlighted. Just the kiasu in me. My days now are mugging in the library or cafes with Wai Fon and then summore studying at home... Occasional lunches with Baby...then back to studying.. I need to hang in there. And I believe I can do it!!
fml
Currently listening to : Gareth Emery Podcast 76
Totally random, toaaly time wasting cuz I have no life.
If I ever had the guts to tattoo myself I would tattoo this..
Not the words la, just the sillhoutte of Armin or the words : Last night a dj saved my life
On random stuff, I stole this from Alvin's blog. He snapped this while I was already unconcscious in Claire's class. I was exhausted cause since 10am Wai Fon and me were muggin at Starbucks and calss waqs at 6.30pm. FML.
Totally random, toaaly time wasting cuz I have no life.
If I ever had the guts to tattoo myself I would tattoo this..
Not the words la, just the sillhoutte of Armin or the words : Last night a dj saved my life
On random stuff, I stole this from Alvin's blog. He snapped this while I was already unconcscious in Claire's class. I was exhausted cause since 10am Wai Fon and me were muggin at Starbucks and calss waqs at 6.30pm. FML.
emo
I'm feeling cryptic and confused. It's not funny how trivial things can blow up in my face. Words I used seems to fail me, actions I do gave people the wrong impression. My heart is insecure. Like the test I took, i overthink, overdecipher things. My head is full of what if's and what not. Is it the legal person in me or the trance person in me. With both needs deep discerning of things. Legal is the ability to reason and trance is the appreciation of all the beats. All of that needs focus on something that is not visible.The damage has been done, no amount of words can be used to cure it. It might offer some kinda consolation but it still hurts. I'm lost, for the first time today. Lost on what I want. I can jsut breath a heavy breathe of hesitation and a breathe of frustration. I can blame it on my circumstances but this time I admit my mistakes, I blame myself for my dispositions. Should I trust my heart or my head? I really do not know. People say 20s are the time for mistakes and lessons. Can i just learn the lessons and not make the mistakes? Is it to much for me to ask? My heart is weary and heavy. I'm tired. Everything is silent is my head now. Just the music of trance now in my room. Never did i felt so lost. Once you think you're in a good place, *bam* you're hit with a reality check. I have nothing more to say. Just wish the weight on my heart is gone. I hate this part right here.
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