emo

I'm feeling cryptic and confused. It's not funny how trivial things can blow up in my face. Words I used seems to fail me, actions I do gave people the wrong impression. My heart is insecure. Like the test I took, i overthink, overdecipher things. My head is full of what if's and what not. Is it the legal person in me or the trance person in me. With both needs deep discerning of things. Legal is the ability to reason and trance is the appreciation of all the beats. All of that needs focus on something that is not visible.The damage has been done, no amount of words can be used to cure it. It might offer some kinda consolation but it still hurts. I'm lost, for the first time today. Lost on what I want. I can jsut breath a heavy breathe of hesitation and a breathe of frustration. I can blame it on my circumstances but this time I admit my mistakes, I blame myself for my dispositions. Should I trust my heart or my head? I really do not know. People say 20s are the time for mistakes and lessons. Can i just learn the lessons and not make the mistakes? Is it to much for me to ask? My heart is weary and heavy. I'm tired. Everything is silent is my head now. Just the music of trance now in my room. Never did i felt so lost. Once you think you're in a good place, *bam* you're hit with a reality check. I have nothing more to say. Just wish the weight on my heart is gone. I hate this part right here.