I h8 weekends

I've been bumming last weekend. Tried to study but can't.Now I hate weekends cuz I feel even more alone. My parents are not at home most of the times in weekends and I'm left all alone. bumming around and watcing re runs of CSI on my pc. I miss him terriblely. During weekdays not so much because of classes but on weekends..OMG, the feeling is dreadful. When I call him it's less then a minute I get to talk to him. I havent's seen him for days now. It's really distracting me now..I need get my "mojo" back. The "mojo" to study relentlessly. Life sucks. If after elections he'll be like this, I don't know whether I can do this anymore. I wasted 3 fucking days emo-ing. I don't know what I want anymore...

ZZZzzz..

They say babies bring happiness to a home. I believe it's true. My mom started babysitting again and this time is a cute tiny 7-week baby boy. He' so tiny and smiles at you when you touch his nose and smile to him. aww so cute..so tiny and perfect..Just another excuse for me to go see him and NOT study!! Seriously I cannot sit still to study and i have this urge to go see the baby every five minutes. Or maybe because it's CLR (common law reasoning aka english legal system) subject..It's the ultimate insomnia-killer subject ever. When you read through a paragraph you can feel the sleepiness creeping through and suddenly the bed look so ever tempting..I'm yawning already as this moment and the effect does not go away..

I Pray to You Dear Lord, Give me the strength for me to study CLR and other subjects.Please keep the evil sleepiness from me O Lord. Please also guide me in understanding the passages of Law and it will committ to my memory.I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me O lord. I need your help..In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Rantings

Does the essay read out by Miss Meera send shivers down my spine ? The content of the essay:not at all.. the only shiver I get is that I did not do the assignment. I admit I cannot write as GREAT as her because eventhough I'm guilty of copying books I won't do it word by word. Miss Meera said she is great in picking the right parts. Maybe I'm just jealous? Anyways I need to be kiasu bitch and do better now. Wanna go study already *ties the ganbate headgear on my head*. BTW, I cannot regurgitate out word by word text except the quotations from the judges. guess I have to start memorizing now and tomorrow I'm gonna purchase my trustee Brands Chicken Essence and that incident spoils my mood that now I need some hot juicy gossip at Perez to make me feel better. Not even the smell of statute books can relieve me now..See I'm bipolar like Britney, maybe i should now drive erratically(oh yeah I did it today), run to starbucks ,petrol stations and show my va-jay jay when stepping out the car.wtf..I'm so pissed!!!

As random as it can be..

I'm in a cheery mood today. Probably I have bipolar disorders that make me happy one minute and emo the next? Anyways, today was a good day it hink maybe cause I had enough sleep and I don't feel that lethargic anymore. Made myself dinner these two days and my cooking skills is improving like when you play The Sims and your Sim is cooking and it would have a blue bar on it's head increasing everytime you cook. Well that is how I felt and I actually felt good that I learn something new. I always cook, just that this time is chinese cooking which I'm not really good at. i usually cook for myself the usual pasta but I decided somethingnew and it actually turned out great....

My cheery mood is not because of The Bear because I still have not seen him these past few days and yesterday I think pecah rekod cause he did not call me. I did not even realise till after midnight whenI received his message. Well I'm not feeling bad or sad bout it, I'm adapting. It's getting better eventhough I don't hear his voice or see him now. But I called him today and said I need a new handphone. Contrary to my previous post saying that I don't need one, I retract back the statement because my phone's speaker is spoilt. I thought it can survive a couple more months but now the sound cracks more frequently. So now i'm browsing for a new one and he ask me to go and buy one and he'll pay me back. Come to think of it, I don't have time to go searching for one, even if I have, who 's gonna teman me? I can't go alone, scared kena ripped. I need to drag someone with a "bargaining" mouth..I just do not have the bargaining and the caveat emptor factor(let the buyer beware-i'm the type of person who'll just pay and go) in my bones. Paiseh I guess..

Oh yeah I thought I can be independent la in managing the house last weekend since my parents went to Singapore turns out I almost starve my mom's fishes to death, almost killed her plants and forgot to bring in the mail. I did not feed the fishes for two days, thank god they did not turn upside down. I also totally forgot to water the plants and bring in the mail. My father came back last night and the moment he walked in , he noticed the plants are de-hydrated. He even saw it at night with no lights on, talk about a keen eye. My brother is in the house this weekend but he is obsolete and if I'm not here I think he would not even take out the garbage..

Tomorrow a brand new day. I'm still thinking whether should i go gym tomorrow after class. I'm driving tomorrow so it's a big thing cause I never drove to the gym before..It's been so long I did go to the gym eventhough i'm sitll apying every month.Revision time table came out, I think we should just camp there cuz classes for 7 days a week and there is a lecturer called Ken Oliphant with the last name as Tim Oliphant in Die Hard 4.0 and Hitman. Hope he is hot or maybe he is just another older matured British man. White, male, Oxbridge and public schooled?? Typical English academician?

Enough yapping, I think I need to smell my new statute books. Love the smell of new books...toodles~
p/s Bobo Blows..have you seent the "hawt" pics? I think bikini wax is overrated...

Emo post again..

Am I'm too pampered? The Bear asks me what I want for Chinese New Year(he always buys me big gifts on CNY rather on v-day). We both are practical people,realists. We spend hours last few weeks thinking about what I need. I have a car, a well-upgraded pc, diamond ring,digital camera,mp3 player..hmm..pretty much all i need now. I'm sure some of you have it all now but this all The Bear bought for me and more these pass 3 something years. He wanted to buy me awatch but I seldom wear a watch, he wanted to buy me a handphone, but I don't need a handhpone now, he wanted to buy me a laptop, but I don't need it right now,plus I'm already having touble organising my files in my pc now..imagine the confusion I bring to myself if I have a laptop.What do I really want?? Retail therapy? I don't think that is going to make me happy. I think all i want is time with The Bear, it seems like no matter how many things he bought for me, all i want is to share with him. What good is retail therapy if he isn't there? What good is a handphone is he won't be able to talk me ?What good is a laptop if he won't ave time to do his OCD thing on it? He promise that after these crucial weeks he'll have time for me, I doubt it, after the elections, he'll be more busy. Even when we went back to Kedah n Langkawi, he's bombarded with calls. We did have fun, but I couldn't even talk to him now. I've been to dependent on him, we used to see each other everyday,suddenly he don't have time anymore. I don't blame him, but it is hard on me not having to hear his voice. I'm not an independent person in a relationship,always,I always need someone. taht's why I cannot do long distance,I tried it before but inevitably failed. I really admire people who can do that. I salute them,how do they contain they feelings and not be able to communicate? I need to be strong,stronger for these few days where my house is empty and I'm all alone...

Bored

Another week has passed.Mundane week that is.I'm not feeling well..something is worng..I'm very tired and my body is aching all over..you know when you're bout to get sick-kinda-feeling?that's the feeling i have,thus I skipped bout like 3 classes this week.Now the elections are set and The Bear is busier then ever. I don't think I'll be able to see him till after election..yes he's that busy. theri sevrice center is even equipped with make-shift mattress and water heaters so for those who can't go back late at night can sleep there. now my weekends are super boring and lonely..Now I'm too tired and moodless to post any pics. Will blog later...

Emo post again

Just finish doing public assignments.Hand is aching from the writing.Tired and lethargic.Missing the Bear badly. Cannot even see him on V-day..I hate countdowns towards D-day. Stress is sipping..if someone discuss something i don't know, i get stressed. it just seems I do not have talent for Criminal Law. It seems my life ran back on full gear when I'm back from Langkawi. Langkawi was fun and relaxing. I miss the sand on my feet and the sound of waves. The stars during the night and the glorious sunset at Pantai Cenang..I'm going back there soon. By hook or by crook I need another beach vacation after D-day..*sigh*

Back to criminal..arrhhh..tutorials in the morning...

Gong Xi Gong Xi

I packed my bags,clean my room(just a bit),charging and uploading song to my mp3 player, charging my camera and my handphone,threw out the garbage and withdrew money. I'm all set for CNY now and even more excited for tonights dinner. My mom cooked a lot this year because my bro's gf and The Bear is joining for my family's reunion dinner. Yum yum. After the holidays I'm gonna detox myself and mug my books. No more playing around anymore and *with a Spartan shout* "Let the battle begin!!!"

Tomorow I''ll be leaving on a plane to Alor Setar and on 8/2 ,I'll be going to Langkawi and will be back on the 10th via The Bear's car. I'm dreading to go back on the 10/2 because it's gonna be massive jam, I just hope I can get back to home sweet home by evening.

So I would like to wish all of you a Happy Chinese New Year!! Drink more water too!!

Will blog after the holidays. Happy holidays!!

Moody,grumpy and irritated.

I'm feeling a bit unwell all because of last minute shopping. After work yesterday, I wen to shop at Times Square for my CNY. As usual I went to Nichi and this season's clothes is so not nice and I ended up with a bright orange top to coincide with the celebrations. I brought a polo shirt form FOS and an Espirit purse. Later that evening I went to Petaling street with The Bear to but Dried Meat for my mom and his family, furthermore I'm in search for big bag cause my trusty Padini green bag is a bit weary.I was dead tired after shopping in Times Square, walking around quite aimlessly with so many people, my head hurts and my feet is tired.I've been standing and walking since morning. We came home form Times Square around six and took a nap, initially the Bear said we can go on Monday so I slept till 8.30 pm and later last minute he said we have to go now to Petaling Street cause the next two days till CNY he is not free. I was so pissed cause I ask him like a million times can he make it today or postpone CNY shopping to Monday or Tuesday? He said he cannot postpone but then later he said must go NOW!! It's bloody raining outside and he said probably it won;t rain in Petaling Street. It took an hour for us to get there and it was still raining and traffic is so bad. I have no mood whatsoever and proceeded to buy a bag which was only acceptable to me and not exactly what I was looking for. Then we went to Kiew Brothers Dried Meat shop and have to queue for like an hour before we can buy anything. It was such a bad trip, I was tired,hungry and cold at the same time. After we bought the dried meat, I was so angry and grumpy that i'm no longer hungry. I was holding on to my patience cause I do not want to argue with The Bear and so was he. To sum it up it was the worse CNY shopping ever. Oh yeah I book an air ticket that costs me RM 165 to Alor Setar on 7 feb. The Bear told me he was going to drive back on the 5th FEb . Nnow he came back tonight and said he is driving back on the midnight 6th Feb means he can join me for Reunion dinner. Waste of money right. the reason I'm going to Kedah on 7 th Feb so I can be with my family for the dinner now he can join us so what's the freaking point i need to waste money on the air ticket???I can just follow his car back!! He gave reason that he was too busy and cannot wrap up his work before 5th. Last minute..i hate it. I don't like unplanned situations.I'm so pissed that I might blow up anytime soon and i there is any last minute changes.

Another thing that pisses me off is that my sis ask me to book CJ on the 7th. I wanted to watch so I ask whether can we change to midnite of 6th feb. She said ask my brother and my elder sis. I ask my bro and he said he don't know yet, I ask what plans do u have on the eve of CNY besides the reunion dinner, he said none. I was pissed becasue it was just a simple question whether you want to watch it or not? To add salt to the wound, he said can book later what..I told him it's fully booked, if everyone can confirm I can just buy the tickets online. He said "see first". I snapped back and said is it so difficult? I just went back to my room. I know it's a small thing but I hate organising stuff for people who are indecisive, I organised a family trip to Langkawi for my family and in the end, I breakdown during dinner because when I ask them for a decision they will procastinate and in the end when I make a decision I kena their comment sbout this and that. Very hurtful but my sis always ask me to do favours. Of cause I don't mind if helping her only but I will never ever organise anything for my family. They know I have the capability but in the end I'm the youngest so I think they just can't get past that when I'm leading.

TGI Friday's before holidays

Just got back from my last minute CNY shopping and it is not fun and it was dreadful. I dread shopping last minute but I do not have the time and furthermore The Bear is paying so I have to go when he is free. I got all the stuff I need and I want CNY to pass by quickly so I can start my revision to the exams.I want the exams to get out of my system and I can clear my mind!!

Last week was Jie Hu's birthday so we all went to to TGI Friday's in Pavillion. It was my first time at Pavillion and for me it's just like any other mall but with a spacious and modern decor. I have really no mood to shop whatsoever these few months so I did not walk the whole mall.

We had a blast at TGI Friday's and we all ordered set meals and tax each other meals till we could not finish our own dessert. The food was great and we all chit chat and camwhored till about 6 pm. That's about it, I guess. Not really in the mood to elaborate further..Here are the pics of the event:

#1 Taken a few days ago before the big "Cherry" event. #2 Birthday Boy with 3 tier Fajita "cake"
#3 First layer:Guacamole,sour cream,tomatoes and carrots
#5 2nd layer: Beef and chicken filling
#4 Third Layer:Fajitas
#5 Tomato and Basil Chicken Linguini
#6 I forgot the name of this dish.

It has rice underneath the fish fillet and baked with cheese
#7 Smothered Steak
#6 He has his mouth stuffed !! LOL!!
#7 Lovebirds: Vera and James
#8 The Group Picture
#9 Speech Time

Sis's Big 3-0!!

On 22 nd January my family went to Saisaki Japanse Buffet at Wisma Antarabangsa to celebrate her birthday. The buffet was awesome ranging from different kinds of Japanese food and also Chinese. The first thing I did was attack the salmon sashimi and it's so fresh i can't even describe how great it tastes like. Later after the dinner we went back home for my sister to blow out the candles on the cake we bought and then proceeded to six hours karaoke session in Redbox Low Yat. 10 pm - 4 am karaoke, me,my sis,The Bear and my brother. We sang our hearts out tha tnight and I slept like a log the next morning.That's how we celebrated my sis's big 3-0.

I'm going to be working tomorrow morning and I sort of dreading it. Should I quit and find another job? I'll just see how's the environment these few days..Wish me luck!

#1 I love Sashimi..you can see the amount I took for my plate #2Birthday girl,me and Mom
#3 Still young at heart

Procastinate no more!!

Yesterday after the 6 hours long class, I came back tired. Mom was nagging me and had a fight with my mom. I cried, I think she almost cried too. I'm not gonna share about it here but all its good now. Eventhough we are fine but I'm still emo and did not study yesterday. As usual during my emo period I need to keep myself distracted and I wallowed my feelings through watching series. Chinese series to be exact. When I was in High School I'm a Chinese series addict but not anymore. But there's this show on TV that it's kinda nice showing on NTV 7. I asked around and Sylvester have the entire series. So I borrowed and watched from episode 15-21 yesterday and continued from there till the conclusion. I'm still a bit emo now and have absolutely no mood to study today. So I decided it's time for me to PROSCATINATE no more and post the promised Genting pictures.

The story of Genting begins by EJ wanted to go on a trip. SO we al decided why not have a blast before Chinese New Year because after the celebrations, we all will be busy mugging til the exams in May. 9 of us went up on Sunday and overnight there at the largest hotel in the world, First World Hotel!!

6 of us took the bus up while the other 3 guys drove up. When we went up to the lobby we were given number 0396 and number that was serving then were 0030. I did not expect our number to be so far behind because when I went Genting last time it wasn't that bad. So I volunteered to wait for the number while reading Lydia Teh's "Honk if you are Malaysian" book. so the rest can enjoy themselves at them park which is really not my calling. So after about 1 hour waiting and checking in, we all went to theme park. I'm not a theme park person, I don't like to play rides but when I saw some of them on the Spinner, it looks like fun so I decided to try. Wrong choice!! i almost vommited after the ride and my head was spinning, so I retired to the hotel and had my much needed rest.

Later we had dinner at Hainan Restaurant which was quite pricey but at least they gave reasonable proportions. Nothing to shout about on the restaurant cause it was average on sevice and food.

Then I brought them to my fav place to go during the night in Genting. The Spiderman ride druing the night. Of cause the place is closed but it is always windy and foggy there with some place to sit. So we just hang out there and camwhored. I always love that place cause it's calm and cool during the night. Later, it was suggested that we go to the maze at Theme Park hotel. We did follow the usual tunnels and bridges to the hotel but we used the road. We decided to walk the road and wnet back to the hotel throught the long way along the Genting roads. It was so tiring and fabian decided to act crazy and ran ASS-naked along the road with the cars slowing down to check his ass, i presumed??? We were laughing the whole way and a guy driving the car scolded him "so hai"!! It was good fun...Oh yeah before that we played at the arcade and i can proudly say I kicked the guys ass in House of Dead 4.

I went to the casino while some play snooker and later we slept around 2 and wake up to go to the "buffet" breakfast. WE only have 8 coupons but there were nine of us , but we managed to seledup Eric in becasue there were many people going in so they could not count how many are we. The "buffet" is more like a canteen actually, they have many stations serving the same food and the only thing I like is that they have egg counter so at least that is hot and nice. The rest of the food is warm and mediocre.Well that is what you pay for a budget hotel...

Later in the afternoon we shopped and boarded the cable car down and that was teh end of our Genting Trip!!

The next trip maybe Pulau Perhentian?? Regardless whether my college mates are going , I 'm so going there to spend my post-exam holidays. A friend told me he cannot forseeanything after the exams, well it is different for me I need a reward of some kind to motivate to me to work even harder for exams. So enough bout my ramblings ,here are just some of the pics. The internet is so slow,it's killing me even to upload the pictures~

#1 Trying on Fabian's velvet coat

#2 The Lovebirds..EJ and Debra

#3 A stranger following the acts of Crazy SEET!1

#4 US!!
#5 Four-eyed girls