sos
I gave N an utltimatum. I think we both started out on the wrong foot and can't synchronize it no matter what. This is it. the bottom line. I'm seriously done doubting and wasting my time and energy for someone who can't appreciate. Another chapter closed and new chapter has begun...things seem great but it comes back to square one. i'm hanging in the towel. so so done with this shit.
fall girl
Going to church later. I have to go down first and for sure my parents will be witing n for sure my mum will ask bout N. Crazy shit~
sleep alone
Thanks for ur congrats that I passed.I appreciate it. Now another chapter of my life. New goals and foucs. Life is too short.
something out of the ordinary happened today. would love to blog about it. but the time is not right for me to reveal it yet. sigh..now the only thing is my head is that slogan "Life is Drama" which is the ad for Hallmark channel. Which depicts my life so accurately now. Many many things is happening. endless seismic emotional readings on my life chart.
I'm doing better these days. I've changed so much that I'm amazed that I could actually be in another level. My world used to be allan and me. Closed off from outside world. syok sendiri la katakan. That's the biggest misake I made. I shut myself off from the outside world. Neglected myself.
So to y'all lovebirds out there, learn from my mistake. give urself room and not depend on a person too much. cuz if you lose him/her, your life literally crumbles around you and you fall so low, that you define a whole new low for urself.
random
I re-read my entire blog archives from January till now. So many thing s had happen and I've changed tremendously.I did managed to some things I said I would do. Life is normal right now. Normal as in no huge emo dramas yet.
I went to college yesterday, Miss Meera said I'm with the better results. Not the top but is there in the "it" group already and said I could have beaten Chan. Yeah right, Chan got top in the world with two 70s and two 60s. He's a genius. Schedule for Part 1 are crazy and I can't go church cuz sunday is Trust by Rabinder form 9.30-1 pm. Totally miss the morning session of church. Shit. I wud really like to go to church cuz I love the worship.I told my mum, and she was like dun give me excuses. I said I'm not part time and full time classes for trust is the same. I cannot miss it. Futher more the classes are form thursday to saturday and on thursaday Tort is till 7. i have to rush to mv to make it yoga at 7.40pm. Geesh..the schedule sucks so badly. ..
Yesterday was my second last day at work. Actually it is the last day but my boss ask me to help her with 875 file. Have to go through the documents to compile for trial. So now I hvae only two weeks of blissful holiday. I need to continue going to gym cause I'm on the right track in losing weight ans cannot stop. I cannot be that fat all over again, I can't deal with it...
I went to college yesterday, Miss Meera said I'm with the better results. Not the top but is there in the "it" group already and said I could have beaten Chan. Yeah right, Chan got top in the world with two 70s and two 60s. He's a genius. Schedule for Part 1 are crazy and I can't go church cuz sunday is Trust by Rabinder form 9.30-1 pm. Totally miss the morning session of church. Shit. I wud really like to go to church cuz I love the worship.I told my mum, and she was like dun give me excuses. I said I'm not part time and full time classes for trust is the same. I cannot miss it. Futher more the classes are form thursday to saturday and on thursaday Tort is till 7. i have to rush to mv to make it yoga at 7.40pm. Geesh..the schedule sucks so badly. ..
Yesterday was my second last day at work. Actually it is the last day but my boss ask me to help her with 875 file. Have to go through the documents to compile for trial. So now I hvae only two weeks of blissful holiday. I need to continue going to gym cause I'm on the right track in losing weight ans cannot stop. I cannot be that fat all over again, I can't deal with it...
this is it...
A breathe of relieve. Yesterday while I was about to sleep Jie Hu called and said results are out online. Frantically I grabbed by glasses and click on my mail. It asks for my candidate number. I was like"Fuck!!, where the hell did I put my docket???!!" I took out all the papers from my important documents folder and finally I found my docket. I typed in 31939 and 070250389..yea i remember my SRN number but not my candidate number..wtf..
Press enter I saw the word passed. Relieved but was not too happy. Maybe I expect too much but my brother says it good enough, friends congratulating and even my boss congratulated me this morning. So I just need to suck it up. I did my best despite all the emoness especially my breakup a month before the exams.
Press enter I saw the word passed. Relieved but was not too happy. Maybe I expect too much but my brother says it good enough, friends congratulating and even my boss congratulated me this morning. So I just need to suck it up. I did my best despite all the emoness especially my breakup a month before the exams.
Criminal Law-52
Public Law-53
Contract Law-59
CLR-62
My reviews
- Criminal. Sucks. I wrote like till no tomorrow...fuck...Anyways I already told myself from the start that I'm not gonna venture into criminal when I practice. So fuck it la if its just 52
- Public Law, my favourite subject which I'm disappointed in my marks but in the future, I don't need public law. I know I'm well versed in politics and the constituition so be it, if my marks does bot reflect it. I'm living in Malaysia and I need to be good in Perlembagaan Malaysia y'all....not the unwtirren uk constituition..wtf
-Contract has always been my second weakest subject. I never be able to write as much as other people does cuz I tend to go straight to the point. But I studied my ass off for this subject. 59..hmmm..not my expectation but its ok I guess. While working in litigation, contract principles are used and I done some research on it and found that I can relate to it in practical. so yeah..my contract was ok
-CLR. 62..I'm suprised, I know my research can help me but never knew it can bring it up to 62..since my fav topic jury din come out and I literally crap my way through the other 3 essays. Thanks to Ms Eunice's tutorials cuz seriously I din do any of Raja Singgam's taught topics. Furthermore, CLR is my weakest subject. I always skip classes and only go to Eunice tutorials and spend time with the VLE research thing. And since I'm doing attachment, I'm glad I spend time doing research in CLR cuz it's so important in practice, to be able to do research on cases.
Overrall I'm not excited, I knew I could passed, but I wanted more. Anyways its all in the past now, hey..I got to give credit to myself to passing all despite of that drama shit that happens. Now its Part 1..ekk..excited, nervous at the same time...
new chapter
Called college for the third time this week. Finally a confirmed answer that the results wil be out after 12 tomorrow. Yeah they have to torture us right till the end of the week. I've been waking up every morning since Monday asking "Is this the day" and I will feel naseous each morning. Apart from me worrying bout results, I have a lot on my mind. Things still aren't certain..Sigh
During the first few yoga classes, I find it hard to meditate during yoga. My mind just does not seems to want to relax, but lately after a few classes, I'm getting the hang of it. Now it seems easier to get to the zone and just relax and focus on my breathing. Since I met two new friends from yoga, it makes me more commited to go the classes every tuesday and thursday.
Tomorrow is the last day of my work. I need to rest.. I love my attachment here, but I really need to sort things out before classes. I need to go shopping for new clothes, run errands, clean my room, reorganize my pc and also go for a trip. I need a few days of sleep without waking up to an alarm. I need to lie on my bed and watch project runway and many other movies I downloaded. I want to burn all my series to dvds or just buy another external hard disk. There is so much I need to do. I need to organize a menu for my bro's theme bbq party "License to grill". i need to go to the post office and collect my rebate also. I also need to get my car washed and vaccum.
You might ask why not do it on weekdays or weekends. You see I'm a lazy being. After work I drive straight to mv for gym. After gym, I'm really tired physically. I just lie on my bed and listen to music, make a couple of calls and crashed. My laundry in my room is so much, I have to chuck it on my pc table's chair. Now I cant sit when I chatting at home. I need to stand..wtf..Same cycle for the rest of the week. If no gym, will usually out for a movie or cc. On saturdays I slept till the afternoon, then will be going out and come back by night. Sunday mornings are for church then a nap then dinner.
I need to reorganize back my life for Part 1..well hopefully I can make it to Part 1..I think I want to start working back at Sbux. I need moolah. For me it's like a another chapter in my life when class starts. I need to be more hardworking. Need to be smarter. need to make myself look better. do things for ME. For the benefit of ME. ME and ME alone.
I need to tell myself I refuse to be emo for whoever and whatever reason. I have the freedom now...
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During the first few yoga classes, I find it hard to meditate during yoga. My mind just does not seems to want to relax, but lately after a few classes, I'm getting the hang of it. Now it seems easier to get to the zone and just relax and focus on my breathing. Since I met two new friends from yoga, it makes me more commited to go the classes every tuesday and thursday.
Tomorrow is the last day of my work. I need to rest.. I love my attachment here, but I really need to sort things out before classes. I need to go shopping for new clothes, run errands, clean my room, reorganize my pc and also go for a trip. I need a few days of sleep without waking up to an alarm. I need to lie on my bed and watch project runway and many other movies I downloaded. I want to burn all my series to dvds or just buy another external hard disk. There is so much I need to do. I need to organize a menu for my bro's theme bbq party "License to grill". i need to go to the post office and collect my rebate also. I also need to get my car washed and vaccum.
You might ask why not do it on weekdays or weekends. You see I'm a lazy being. After work I drive straight to mv for gym. After gym, I'm really tired physically. I just lie on my bed and listen to music, make a couple of calls and crashed. My laundry in my room is so much, I have to chuck it on my pc table's chair. Now I cant sit when I chatting at home. I need to stand..wtf..Same cycle for the rest of the week. If no gym, will usually out for a movie or cc. On saturdays I slept till the afternoon, then will be going out and come back by night. Sunday mornings are for church then a nap then dinner.
I need to reorganize back my life for Part 1..well hopefully I can make it to Part 1..I think I want to start working back at Sbux. I need moolah. For me it's like a another chapter in my life when class starts. I need to be more hardworking. Need to be smarter. need to make myself look better. do things for ME. For the benefit of ME. ME and ME alone.
I need to tell myself I refuse to be emo for whoever and whatever reason. I have the freedom now...
.
hawt
I went to court today to witness a trial. The judge was kinda hot. kinda young as well..thats all i got tosay for now..he's hot..n an efficient judge too..during break i saw him and he smiled at me..it was like in high school all over again *drools* see you in two years judge!!
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