peace

Currently listening to: Lisa Miskovsky-Still Alive (Raver Rework)

I felt compelled to blog about this movie I just watched. it's called ' Shoot on sight'. It is about the aftermath of the London bombings. The story revolves around the family of Tariq who is a muslim. He is a reputable investigating officer for the Central London Police. He was called to head the inquiry of the shootings on a Muslim youth in the train station. The story is about the discrimination on Muslim people. The movie is not made to prove which religion or culture is right or wrong. It just shows you the life a Muslim who is just trying to do good in the society. One line that stirred me was " Are all Muslim terrorists or all terrorists Muslim? "

The movie did show to dispell the 'myth' that a Muslim can only marry a Muslim and if not, he/she has to convert. but in the movie Tariq's wife is white and she did not convert. I don't know how true is this but I believe it is possible as everybody is free to practise their own religion. There was one part that almost brought tears to my eyes was Tariq's friend usually takes the bus every day to work, the bus driver will normally wait for him and he talks to some other regulars on the bus. The next day after the London bombings, the bus no longer wait for him and he got stares from the regulars in the bus. There were no more pleasantries and hellos, just stares.

There was also another line which I felt was outright sensitive , " Are you a policeman who happens to be Muslim or a Muslim who is policeman? One day you have to choose which side you're on. "

All in all, this movie stirs ups thoughts on how we live our life. I'm no saint, sometimes when I see a person of certain race riding the motorbike and i'm walking, I pay extra attention. Everybody has a level of discrimination in them but I feel that we can all try to make the world better by accepting people for who they are and not their skin. I myself is trying to work on it. May we all strive to make the world a betetr place and us not living in fear and discrimination.

balearic all the way

Currently listening to : Andy Blueman-Sea tides

I've been bloggin way less than before. Once a week is a long time for me. I've been going out everyday for the past week. running errands,meeting people etc. I can feel time is passing by so quickly. Met new people and my life is just plain busy. I think it's good. Next month is one year since the big breakup. I've come so far and now I truly feel what singlelife is. There is so much freedom and I've get to know some really nice people who help learn more tings about myself.

I'm tkaing a break from my reading stint. I tell myself, read one more chapter extra before sleep. One more. Push myself.

I don't have much to blog about. So that's bout it..till next time

Currently listening to: Roger Shah feat Savannah-Body Lotion (Jorn van Deynhoven)

sorry to ruin the mood here bac readers out there..but i finally did my countdown on days left to exams..its not 3 digits anymore..fuck
no more partying EXCEPT aly & fila..i swear..
tick tick..the clock is ticking..what am i doing??

my weekend

Currently listening to: Rex Mundi-Passage in time

This weekend has been crazy for me. Friday night was at Maison for Alex M.O.R.P.H's gig and it was jsut ok. I met some new friends though, the same faces I met at Armin's gig in January. It was fun to see trance fans alike yet again. There were some glithces in that gig that night which was disappointing coming from international dj. the mixes was skipped 3 times. the songs were not synchronize properly. too bad. the intro was nice though and he played some of the popular trance songs. I sincerely believe DJ Nenes rocks even more during the halloween party.I regret not being to go Johan Gielen cause I heard it was awesome. another DJ is coming this friday, Steve Lawler. OMG.. so many temptations. I shall not go anymore. till freedom party in may. thats it. I'm drawing the line there.
On saturday, oh..valentine's day..i went out with a friend. totally casual. we went for dinner and a movie. We watched Pink Panther 2. It was freaking hillarious. I never liked this kinda movies but Pink Panther is just too funny. It was good to be able to go out at night on V-day eventhough we were not celebrating it. I never really went on V-day before even last time with my ex. There were people selling flowers all over the place. We actually wanted to Redbox but it was full so we went to the movies instead.
On sunday, I met with another friend to the movies yet again. I shouldn't have chose the movie 'New in town' starring Renee Zellweger. It was bad. There must always be some kinda chemistry between the actor and the actress especially for a romantic comedy. Between Harry Connick JR and Renee, there was no chemistry whatsoever. The storyline is so predictable and you can jsut feel that the movie is forced.
So that was my weekend. busy socialising yet again. which is fun. i love going with friends. till the next post..ciao~

not jaunty

Currently listening to : Reflekt feat Deline Bass - Need to feel loved (Adam K & Soha Remix)

My life is pretty much mundane. My iphone is having some problems. It's too canggih sehingga people still cant' crack it..urgh..damn menyampah at apple now. Later if I pwned(unlock) it I'm gonna change the apple icon into a pineapple icon. Yeah, they have that function to change the reboot icon to a pineapple. funniest thing ever.

I went back to gym today, after a month long hiatus. Running is good, the sad thing is that I forgot to bring my mp3 player. It's refreshing but i'm disappointed at myself cause I use carry 10 kg weight per arm now I can't. sob sob..all because I'm lazy. sloth.

Well I can't let sloth get into me, that is why I'm going to college early to study. Everything is clear now, I got my loan money, paid of my debts and reorganise my study notes. Now is just plain nerd mode and conventional mugging. One thing that is not clear is my emotional area. I feel something is truly missing. Maybe because V-day is near. Funny, when I was in a relationship, I was not not effected with the v-day thingy, now I'm single, I kinda feel the v-day vibe. as though I need someone to celebrate with me. but as I was reading xiaxue's blog, she mentioned she had been single for 4 years. 4 whole years and in March is gonna be one year I'm truly single. good things come to those who wait. I'm not chasing for the 'couple' notion, I'm enjoying my life but I am human. Loneliness is inevitable sometimes. Quoting my friend when this kinda things struck you, ie emoness just " buat bodoh". this things will pass.

*yawns* time for my sleep. ciao

black lines

Currently listening to : Squash 84-Ski or Die (Deep End)

I'm still fidgety. My iphone is still not unlocked yet.
I should be doing Trust questions but now online and watching eye makeup videos. I just got myself an eyeliner. I normally use the pencil eyeliner and my liquid eyeliner dried up cause I did not used in like 2 years. I did a bit of shopping today and bought cleansing cream from Etude House. The shop is in Times Square and it's like the cutest store ever. All pink and girly. I wanted to buy the eyeliner there cause I tested it last few weeks but it's out of stock so I resorted in buying it from Elianto. Today I also dropped by Sbux and my ex colleagues were like " Ai Chen, you are so much more beautiful". I took it a as a huge compliment. I'm not trying to brag but I've been taking care of myself more now. I always go out with makeup. At least some foundation and blusher. Now I take pride in making myself look presentable at least. I go to fashion websites and magazines to get the latest trend. I won't say I'm hot but I'm trying. I need to lose more weight. Ok enough yapping. Need to go do assignment now..nite~

clueless

Currently listening to : Ton TB-Dream Machine (Dunugoz Remix)

Something is not right. Maybe it's just this past weekend. I know I'll be ok. My emotional graph cannot be all time happy, if not I'm not human. Something is missing, but what?

fidget

Currently listening to: Gareth Emery Podcast 70

I'm currently waiting to update my firmware on my iphone. It's taking some time to download and I'm fidgety. I'm actually feeling fidgety this whole week, I don't know why. I actually did study and the more I read my textbook and other materials, the more I feel the exam jitters. The more I feel the stress. to that i can safely say my study mojo is back. So I shall welcome back my stress acne and the constant cramp type of feel in my stomach everytime I feel stress? and also to tonnes of papers lying around my bed and that i will dream of exams? sigh..

I got the iphone ady but now trying to unlock it. My sis just got back from Taipei and LA and got me a bottle of collagen pills and some fake lashies. Bless her!! I want to take collagen cause I heard it's good for the skin and hair. And the fake lashies..shes says in Taipei it's damn cheap..RM 5 for 6 pairs and she bought a couple of selections..

Like I said before, I'm feeling really fidgety. I can't sleep well as though there is much to be done. I think it's the stress is sipping in. It's the same feeling last year, wher eI just want to get it over with. It's a good sign provided I study really hard.

My download is almost done. will blog soon ~

last dance

Currently listening to: Gareth Emery Podcast 71

I received a message today at FB, someone asks me why I love trance? I googled the original word 'trance' not the musical genre trance and its defines trance as an altered state of consciousness. Which is true, when you listen to the trance part, it brings you to a whole new level. It's so high and you can feel like you're flying and it always brings a smile to my face everytime a mix successfully hits the trance part. It's just so beautiful. At first I was bit apprehensive about trance but the more I listen I can see how different beats synchronize together to create a beautiful piece or remix. I agree that many people will say trance is for people who are high on drugs. But for me? I don't care. I don't take drugs whatsoever and still trance gets me high. I'm crazily addicted to trance that I listen to them ALL the time. I try to listen to radio from time to time but sometimes I just need the beats and it's like a drug. I'm so crazy I deleted all the songs in MP3 player and put only trance songs and now my MP3 player only has one type of genre which is trance. LOL

I jsut took a nap and was again woken up, but this time by my mother who brewed me a cup of ginseng tea. I'm usually not that close to my mum before my breakup. I see her at home, eat what she cooks and that's bout it. WE don't talk. After that awful day, I cried my lungs out and she knowing that my room is full or memories between me and him, my parents offered me to sleep in their room and my parents will sleep in my room instead. I slept in my parents room for two nights and they cleaned my room too. Then I went to my sister's place for a couple of days and she would call my sister asking me how am I. My mum knowing I like to cook pasta, she bought all the ingredients for me to kill time and cook. My dad pulak offered to handle all my finances. It's used to be handled by my ex. He bought me everything and my dad told me I can count him for money now and he will also handle my ptptn loan also. Things that they do, makes me feel guilty for taking them for granted the time I'm with Allan. My car is maintained by my Dad obviously. The petrol in my car will 'automatically' refills itself and the tissue box will never runs out.

So in order for me not disappoint them, I need to study and with that added bonus that if Freedom is on, I may go as well.. Ciao~

wish

Currently listening to:Gareth Emery Podcast 71

Geesh..It's 11 in the morning and I'm blogging. Someone woke me up. Don't they know the my day starts in the afternoon? I just found out that Freedom Festival this year is on May 1 at Port Dickson. ARHHHHH!!!!! huge dilemma!!! This year will be the DJs Above & Beyond. One of my favourite DJs also. How now? I told myself if I study properly, I'll go. I'll cari trance ppl alike to go. Since opening the trance fans page, i had emails from people asking me to teman them to trance clubs in KL and of course since I'm invited it's all paid for. I sound cheap right. It's because I AM CHEAP!! I'm not afraid to admit it, but I'm not cheap like a whore kinda cheap but just cheapskate.I am not earning money so I leech on people as much as I can. When the time I earn money I don't mind belanja people but for now I have to be the one kena dibelanja ok?

I found a new song. It's a mix by Cosmic Gate and the song keeps ringing in my head ever since. The song is called Cosmic Gate-Not enough time. and true enough I have not enough time till exams. There is so much to be done and I'm still having fun. shouldn't be I be in study hell now?

Silver lining

Currently listening at this moment : The Gareth Emery Podcast 71

Noticed any difference? I changed the font colours in my blog and updated links. I added all the websites that I frequent to everyday. Maybe from the links I posted you get to know about me and my interests. I vow that I will pay close attention to my typo errors and I blame my keyboard for that. I'm gonna buy a new keyboard soon and a new mouse. I also vow to try to resize the pictures before uploading it. I'm always lazy but now more and more people are actually reading what I've got to say so I've to make it look more proper I guess.

My title of my posts will be back to the way it's used to be. Random stuff that goes through my mind while writing this post so it is not related whatsoever. I like to put unrelated titles. Keeps it random ;p

So leave more comments ya! Ciao~

random crap

Today I woke up feeling refreshed. Thanks to fluotone who listens to my crappiness from me being emo cause I was emo bout sumthing stupid to Knight Rider's car that transforms to stories on porn stars and to the Hakka food that looks like a hemoglobin wtf..Yeah so thanks fluotone.( ps: take my pic down from ur blog)

Today I ate the whole day. Lunch time my sister came so we went to eat Yong tau foo and lo shu fan. then i came home and napped cause i din sleep much last night.Then in the evening we all went to steamboat at Sunway. I binged on mushrooms, prawns,crabs,tofu,vege and seaweed. i cut myself trying to eat the crab on my finger and my mouth. the crab want to revenge on me for putting him in the boiling tomyam soup..eventhough it's dead long time ady..lol..for what its worth the crab was good.

Why does people like to watch me eat? i was eating with a friend and he laughs and said , "You are a natural". i was like wth? humans do eat and I memang tak tau malau when I eat. I don't like eat gelojoh but I just enjoy the food la. I'm not gonna be like malu malu to eat in front of ppl. Thereare many occasions that people jsut want to watch me eat and i'm not bragging. My friend was like jsut staring at me watching me eat. *rolls eyes* I'm not the typical girl who makan tersipu-sipu in front of people..haha..how you gonna enjoy the food? maybe i'm jsut ganas and not feminine

Yea so tomorrow classes restart. 4 more months of pure hell and torture..Am I ready? I guess i have to.

tears

Emotions is a funny thing. Some say it's due to hormones. Many people blame the circumstances. I cried for the first time this year. Really burst into tears and cried. What the person said made me cry, but in the middle of the crying session I found out I'm crying because of all my hidden inner sufferings. I suck it up everytime something gets me down. But tonight it was all released. I don't feel much better but just ashamed and sad. self pity. i guess i'm still the weak person i am. i thought i've changed. yes, i had loads of fun meeting new people and doing new things. the status single? i think at some point my heart is just dry and needs some tlc. when life gives u lemons, you make lemonade. i'm trying to make lemonade out of it. i really thought i'm stronger. but i'm human. months have passed since i last emo-ed. i can't remember the last time i emo-ed or cry. but onight i did. i cried. maybe all this while i'm running away. well it all caught up. tmrw is a brand new day and hopefully it's better.