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my trance year 2009

Pictures to sum up my year. Let them do the talking =)

#1 Armin van Buuren @ Zouk Jan 2009
#2 Alex Morph @ Maison Feb 2009

#3 Aly & Fila @ Blanc March 2009
#4 Speedzone Tour @ Kl Tower April 2009

#5 Freedom @ A Famosa Malacca May 2009
#6 Gareth Emery @ Zouk 2009

#7 Fono @ Zouk July 2009
#8 Andy Moor @ Zouk August 2009

#9 Hari Raya Buffet @ Subang September 2009

#10 Tydi @Blanc Oct 2009

#11 MC Asia @ KL Live November 2009

#12 Armin Van Buuren @ Zouk Dec 2009

im back.

Its 3 am. guess I'm back to my nocturnal ways. Maybe I was emo last two months but I could not remember. the new term is gonna start this Saturday.I passed better then I expected or shall I say positively improportionate to my efforts. I'm contented. I'm now wrapped in my quilt listening to some Lisa Ono to calm my mind. No, this two months had not drastically change my love for trance. I jsut need some lullabies to make me sleep. Last two months was jsut work and more work. My personal life is non existent. I stil make it to trance gigs and go out. But other than that, nothing to shout about. I guess it's good in weird calm way. ahh..what am I talking about. I'm just trying to live my life one day at a time. I got 4 more days till colelge. I'm bored. I spend my days now jsut watching tvb drama till my eyes hurt. Did facials, mani and pedi. Listening to trance like always. Peaceful and calm. a zen life. I don't know what to blog but just feel the need to write. so there you go, my not so dramatic comeback. i prefer to status update my 140 characters oin twitter instead...LOl..so follow @aliciagoh
I'm taking a long hiatus from blogging. I will refrain my time from the internet now. Same to be said to my addiction to facebook and twitter. i'm hurt so I shall purge myself from all the connections for now. like my friend says i need to do some renovation. and renovation it is. i;m tired. my heart is still aching. ego bruised. feel like driving to no where. and get lost. so to all you peeps. thanks for reading and supporting. i'll be back. one day. soon i hope. till then. take care. enjoy your life to the fullest. BYE

pinky n the brain..

Currently listening to: Marc Marberg and Kyau & Albert-Great


Finally after a long long time, I got my iphone working n all. I bought a pink silicon cover for it and I absolutely love it. From my pink phone to my now pink iphone.I've been sleeping early the past week since my attachment started. Things are ok there, my pc at the office is using vista and its not bad and I got to learn more on how the vista works. The monitor is 19'' with wireless keyboards n mouse. The sad, SAD thing is tht it does not have any speakers. So I am completely music free while working. Secretly, eventhough I really hate to admit it, it keeps me more focused and made less mistakes then I did last year while streaming songs. but i digress, last year while working I did not stream trance, I stream flyfm. So I suppose if I stream trance while I work, my work WILL NOT be affected. My life is pretty much rountined based, more calm, uneventful. That makes me emo at times cuz there is no excitment in my life. So only the lil outings or trance gigs tht keeps me motivated. So two days ago, i went out clubbing yet again to blow of some steam and it was also to lend our support to DJ Fono, a well known local trance dj. this time he did not go cause he was busy. So I went with Simon and Alvin, my fellow trance kakis. Of course it was not the same atmosphere as Gareth or Aly & Fila and international djs but it was not too bad. Fono churned out the latest hits and some classics. Kept me singing and dancing. The best is that it kept my trance addiction under control for now cause I'm waiting for August where rumours had it that some top names will be visiting us *keeps my fingers cross*


Today met up with the girls for lunch and some window shopping. Basically is for us to catch up and talk bout our lives and our relationships. I've known them since high school and its nice for us to catch up regularly in person not just facebook or the internet. They are the ones who knew who I really I am. I'm glad I have friends like them. they know I love trance very vey much and they know nothing about it. They actually googled it to find out what is it.LOL.

Not much to talk bout now actually. Planning to fold my clothes n all, but listening to ASOT now....Nice nice selection this week.




Radio shows I tune in every week:

1.Trance Around The World with Above and Beyond
2.A State of Trance with Armin van Buuren
3.Tiesto's Clublife
4.Gareth Emery's Podcast
5.Sundance by Danny Oh
6.Radiokul with Simon Lee & Alvin
7.Trance Frontier by Danny Oh
8.International Departures by Myon & Shane54

This is excluding occasional trance.fm live. So someone asks me how I keep track? I don't know. i jstu listen to all of them. I'm going crazy with trance. i truly am. Note that each show minimum is an hour mix. So i spend more than 10 hours on new trance, excluding the favourites I keep replaying.
I've being emo. not bout him. well maybe a lil.but no point for me to bring it up. no point actually. but the 90% of my emoness is caused by unknown reasons. trance is not helping tht much. after trance i feel slightly better than i slummed back into emoness. i sat in the car. driving, sped as fast i cud. came back. felt better. then now emo back again. y?? i'm always like tht..if i keep something tht has been bothering me for sometime..then i forget bout it..then the bitterness sort of berkumpul and now here i am..depths of emoness. this maybe the first time i not putting what am i listening..cuz i so malas to even type it out

Gareth Emery..

Currently listening to: Gareth Emery Podcast 81

Another great trance night. First hour an half was awesome then it slowly was boring but it was saved by the great company I had. It was more of a meet and greet and catch up session earlier. We caught up with facebook trance kakis. As usual we camwhored a bit and danced the night away. GE (Gareth Emery) opened his set with Andy Moor & Ashley Walbridge feat Meighan Nealon-Faces. I was up at the podium and dancing and singing. We were all esctatic. Then after that was a lil tech house and some memorable hits like Oceanlab-Lonely Girl ( Gareth Emery Remix),Oceanlab- On a good Day (Daniel Kandi Remix),Andy Moor feat Nadia Ali- Love Story, John O' Callaghan feat Sarah Howell - Find yourself (Cosmic Gate Remix), RexMundi- Nothing at all and many more. the set was starting to get bored for me at the last 30 mins. But in all it was good fun. nothing can replace Freedom or Armin's set in January. This is just something to get me by. I'm addicted to trance..lol

Let's talk fashion. I bought this dress from Times Square. I actually got 3 choices for GE's gig. I bought a long grey dress earlier, then Wai Fon wanted to go shopping. So I could not resist myself and bought 2 more dresses. A green lycra dress and the white one I wore yesterday. It was pretty simple and someone ask me why I dress like i'm going to dinner. Well, i want to look classy. Eventhough I don't like R&B clubs but the girls dress nice. Dresses and bit of bling. So why can't I do the same for Trance. I still can dance and enjoy myself and I feel good in a dress as well.

Next week, I'm starting back my attachment on Wed. So back to my law life. After exams, i sort of don't remember anything I studied. I completely let it go. Now back to my other part of my life. Not truly excited bout the working. Not cuz its not great. Its just the waking up in the monings. so nuff said..pics time. Its the same pics in FB but these are the ones i like the most:


#1 Man of the night!

#2 Focus..
#3 Wonderful ppl i met through TIFM


#4 ;-)

#5 LOL

#6 Trance Forever!


i got a new dog..but i still have no mood to blog. lot of things in my mind. just check out the pics in fb ok..will blog soon..hopefully *cross fingers*
I've tried to blog. but no mood. not emo. just nothing to write. only got the mood to listen trance all day and all night long. trance for life..

my kinda trance

I'm falling in love with this song. So chill, so nice. My kinda trance.

Look at da comments at the viedo in youtube.

My fav line by a user.. flomperdomeper: I think Mat Zo just made sweet sweet love with my ears.


bleh

Currenty listneign to : Kismet- Lost Language

Someone ask me what have I've been doing that is not related to trance nowadays. I did do a lot of stuff but trance is in my head 24/7. My weekdays are filled with activities. I go out and chill with my sister. She would cook, i would use her pc and do some maintenance for her. I would also watch astro and play with her cat. We talk crap and lepak till like 5-6am in da morning. When the sounds of the mosque are heard, i would be brushing my teeth preparing to sleep. Tomorrow she is going to penang and I really hope I can have lunch with him tomorrow. There will be dinner tomorrow at night also. So in the afternoon , I will do my red laundry. I wash my 'outgoing' clothes by hands and colour code it. Last two days was blue and black clothes. 2mr will be red and white I think. If there is sunlight, maybe another colour. I'm rambling as it is. gonna sleep soon. Another day of errands.

beh( lantak remix)

Currently listening to : TATW 266

I'm reading Sophie Kinsella's Undosmectic Goddess ( I do read la..I don't just listen trance, I have many other secondary interests ) I was at the first page and this paragraph interests me:

I love my job. I love my satisfaction of spotting loophole in a contract. I love the adrenaline rush of closing a deal. I love the thrill of negotiation, and arguing and making the best point in the room.

In the book the character is a lawyer. and that paragraph right there there sums up what I why I want to become a lawyer.

I'm now wide awake. I overlsept. Or I think I'm too tired and slept at odd hours. I woke up at 9 something today courtesy of my very own personal wake up call. Then I went to lunch and Sungei Wang. I came back slept till 5. Had dinner. Wanted to go to my sis's place at 9. I wanted only to take a two hour nap. But I was damn sleepy. in the midst of some weird dream I texted my sis and him. Then continue to sleep. I left my lights on and when I woke up to turn it off and plan to sleep, but suddenly I'm wide awake.

I can't wait to wear my satin grey dress to Gareth's gig. Its me having to buy a new dress everytime got international trance dj coming. Cuz my sister told me , if go clubbing for an event. go all out. dress to impress. she creative in dressing up. i'm not. so i just go buy. and i have this thing that i dun like to wear the same baju n take pic which is then posted fb. but i did it with the strawberry top which i love. so tht is an exception i guess. i'm chilling with trance. my love, trance. reminiscing the time in Freedom. hmmm..such a nice time, the atmosphere, the lights and the music. so euphoric. i miss FREEDOM so so much. enough rambling..my flu pills in..arh..maybe tht is why i'm sleeping too much. my body telling me to rest.

2mr another day at the gym. i want to suntan at the pool listening to trance so i went to watsons to buy some tanning spray. they ran out of tanning lotion. and there is a new tanning salon openign soon oppostie my gym at mv. funny how many malaysians would be willing to pay to get the i-just-got-back-from-bali look. LOL

got the blueprints?

Currently listening to: Ferry Tayle & Static Blue- L'Acrobat

It's the second week of freedom already I've done quite a lot. More needs to be done. I just went and bought myself a gorgeous grey dress, a brown satin top and pair of shoes. I bought another pair of shoes yesterday wtf. I've yet to shop for work clothes. Some emo shit happen to my friend and they both sort of blog about it. Well maybe one of them blog and the other told me la. the point is..i'm annoyed a bit. dunno y.. maybe thts how ppl feel when they read my emo stuff last time. so i shall refrain from blogging bout my emo stuff. maybe i'll set up another blog purely for my dark tortured soul..lol

I have 3 more weeks left before I start work back. then i'll be at the office 9-6 and gym at night. back to the normal routine. i'm so sleepy. i stil have not gotten any good night sleep. i crave a good haegan dass raspberry ice cream now *hint hint*. i was never a dessert person. i never use to crave sweet stuff but now i look at the dessert first before ordering my main course. but i still don't take carbonated drinks. so kinda balanced out my diet i think.

its so hot now..so humid. till i'm having a migraine now. i don't have much to write acutally. so jsut random stuff now. boring as usual.

sleepy

Currently listening to : Myon & Shane 54 - Helpless (Monster Mix)

They ask me when will I join them back. I like it there but for this month I need to chill a bit. Even at times I may be bored but I want to make sure everything is organised. I've packed all my books to one side. Now my shelves is filled with novels and its a nice sight, better than my law books. I love law, since i'm gonna be working back at my old firm I need to take a break from legal stuff. I want to work on my group. Do some reading, spend mroe time at the gym. just enjoying the lil stuff. I want to just go to movies when I want without worrying whether tomorrow is work day or not. I just need a good rest. Everyone is asking me to go work soon. My parents and him. Maybe I'm too annoying to them when I'm too free? I guess so..

I rented a couple of books and downloaded some games. Plan to do some mixing too. Lots of things to be done. I need to do somemore laundry, reogranise my wardrobe also before i go shopping. Summore told my dad I'm gonna vaccuum the car. I need to also sort out my shoes. Take them to the cobbler guy to fix and also throw out those tht cant be mended. I need to do all of that before I go shopping to avoid overspending..

I'm rambling as it is. Trance is beginning to consumes me. I'm thinking of it day and night. How? If i work then? i think i can stream di. fm or trance.fm while i work..cuz i used to stream fly fm last time..lol

I went to my colleague's wedding dinner. The dress I wore was bought years ago. Now it's so loose..I have to tie behind really tight. when I saw the pic, i cant believe how much slimmer i looked. i dun mean to brag but coming from a used to be fat person, its an accomplishment for me ok? so just want to show off a bit..bleh..lol. but i have more to work on..another5 kg by end of this year..


eh..

Currently listening to: John O' Callaghan feat Lo-Fi Sugar - Never Fade Away ( Andy Duguid Remix)

I jsut got back from my ex-colleague's wedding dinner. soon to be a colleague back again cause i'm gonna start my attachment at the law firm next month tentatively. I feel more liberated and independent lately. I've been doing things myself nowadays. compared to previous months where I always want someone with me. I do now, but I'm more understanding I think. but now and then that old habit creeps up. since the exams, i've been on track with my plan. to clean my room work on my group.I've changed a lot of things and update my TFIM (trance fans in malaysia). responses are growing and i'm always updating now. which is good. i love doing something i'm passionate about. there are many things to be done. this year i feel liberated, enlightened and most importantly happy. happy cuz i've achieved many things. and there is more to come. so fast we've reached the middle of 2009.jan 2009 seems like yesterday for me. in tht course of few months i've met someone wonderful in my life and some great friends where i can forsee me having long lasting friendship with. i lost more weight and feel confident in wearing a bikini at the gym now. i'm contented with my life now. i'm happy. u may think is superficial, the things i'm happy about. but i can feel my inner self is feeling more postive. comapre this period of time and me last year. how far i've come. thanks to the grace of God and his workings. i'm blessed.

for an angel

Currently listening to : Chicane-Poppiholla

I'm currently really like sleep deprived. I've been like this since last Friday. If you dunno where I've been last Friday..its either, u r not a regular of this blog, u dun have me at facebook or u r a stranger..I was at Melaka for the Freedom rave. The all so highly advertised rave party of the year. The biggest one I shall say. Raves are not as some people think, drug infested or some kind of sex party. Tht one maybe in their own private post party la. But I'm there to enjoy the music. Nothing else. I went there with really hardcore trance people. people who speak trance. Not those people who got there for the sake of a rave. The trancers were Danny , Simon and Alvin. We 4 lepak together most of the time then joined by Aidan, Ling, the Singaporean stoners( dun ask me why the name) , Gracie, Ali D and many more. The moment I stepped into Simon's car to Melaka and all the way back to KL, I enjoyed every moment. The lasers were amazing, I was seriously enjoying the music, every minute of it. I think I left my heart there, cuz now I'm suffering from post rave depression.

First night was Markus Schulz opening for Ferry Corsten. We did not have the timetable, so we thought Markus gonna be like at 10pm but he started at 9 I think. He is Danny's fav dj, so we rush like hell from our apartment and took the shuttle to the rave. His set was suprisingly proggy, was ok la..I can still layan and all..Ferry was amazing. He played many tracks from his album Twice in a Blue Moon. The lasers n the lightings created a magical feel for me. they brought a vocalist to sing 2 songs from Ferry's set. She was awesome as usually trance vocalists when sing live..tak boleh pakai..but she was so good..Love Betsie Larkin. I was so into it, I dun want the night to end. We camwhored, met new people, continue dancing and went back and chilled with a beer listening to podcasts. We party safely and responsibly. eventhought the night ended early and many people have their own chillout postparty, we just chill with podcasts. We party with quality and not quantitu. I din drink but I just chill with them la..

The next day, we went to Melaka town for lunch. It was damn fun la. The 4 of us plus Gracie, we just clicked. It is as though we know each other for a long time. For the first time I have a group of frens whom I can talk trance 24/7 and all of us won't get bored wei. Besides trance also we had lots of fun talking bout other stuff. Then at night my sister joins us for the second night. Some funny shit went down at the apartment tht night, I can't blog about it cause I've been told my bro not to write incriminating stuff on my blog or online, cuz if I were to be a lawyer one day, tht shit gonna come back and haunt me. so i shall zip it, but it never fails to make me smile when I think bout tht incident. The 2nd night was totally mind blasting..lol..Tydi was so awesome. His warmup set was superbly amazing. I was like woah.....din know Tydi had so much talent..he is only 21. his set was great. transitions were smooth too. When my fav djs Above & Beyond came out, I was ecstatic. I have no other words to describe what a fanstactic set they deliver. the most memorable part was when On a Good Day was played. We group hugged altogether. We sang along and it was so so nice. I can feel that that time Trance truly brings us together.

The next day in the car, we were all very sad. We are sinking in slowly into depression by that time and I'm still under depression now even. I want to blog more bout my personal experience but for now jsut the general gist. All the pics are in Facebook. These are just some that I like.

I'm still smiling when I look at the pics.. sigh..I miss the rave so so much, i miss the company..
#1 My trance kakis

#2 At the cendol place I've been bugging all of them since lunch


#3 At the clubhouse..club as in the real club house..not the 'club' LOL
#4 Love ya guys \o/
#5 Trance chicas
#6 My first taste of Freedom
#7 The need to camwhore.. T__T

#8 My RAVE outfit.

one word: AWESOME!!

yo wassup

Currently listening to : John Hetmond & OSip -Lungomare

The song I'm listening to is simply divine. I learned a lil bit on how to mix some sogms. Nothing spectacular, still learning the transitions. Only that. I havent found the ' storytelling rythm' in my mix. I need to build up my collection first. For now I am very excited for tomorrow. Bit mixed feelings cause I'll be going with a heavy heart. Cause things did not turn out the way it should have. But anyways..that is not the focus of Melaka. The focus is to enjoy Ferry, Markus, Tydi, 16 bit Lolitas , Betsie Larkin and my all time favourite ABOVE & BEYOND. I'll be dancing to songs like Made of love for sure and possibly Lonely girl, somehow, on a good day,black sun possibly? chinook. so excited. beyond words can describe despite that tiny ache of emoness still in me. trance can cure me that night. i'm sure it can. i bought myself a ferry corsten tshirt. so excited. my fren told me i'm the trance energy. LOL trance energy, dunno does he know Trance Energy is another one of those massive raves I would like to go to. i'm babbling as usual. trance for life~

penner-ing

currently listening to: TATW 266

It's all over. I screwed it up. Better luck or better chance next time. When I'm not so childish and immature. When I learn to see things from people's perspective. I thought I knew but I don't. So it came back at bite me. I'm hurt. No doubt I'm hurt. I'm a paranoid bitch. Insecure. Shall I say sorry to myself then??

so full

currently listening to: TATW 268

I'm too full to sleep or do anything. My sis and I just had 'cum' burger at Ampang. the term 'cum' burger as much as its sounds so wrong but the term is propounded by dear friend. It is because of the gooey-ness and sheer amount of cheese melting and the egg inside your mouth. And the egg is just cook slightly and the whites of the egg is slightly fluid like and hence the equivalent to cum..ewwww...gross..are your reactions but the burger is damn good. It's like having a cholestrol packed burger orgasm in your mouth. the warm beef burger with the gooey cheese and the wetness of the egg, its just a sinful indulgence. I have not had the burger for over a year I think. At first I do not want to eat, but my sister says she's craving for it and we went to Ampang at 3.30am. That is just the stupid things we do sometimes. Now I'm so so full, and I don't think I can lie down. I think that fulfills my annual sinful indulgence of the 'cum' burger. Pardon my lnaguage on the burger but true to its name..lol

Finally I had some time to blog. Yesterday I had my evidence paper and today I had tort. The next papers are trust and land which I have more confident in. *cross fingers* . I did the best I could given my slacking this year and sincerely and genuinely hope I will pass. Next week is a busy week and I'm sure I can get through it. I need to take care of myself. I will strive to do better.

On more random updates, I watched movie with some college mates Alvin , Virata , Damian, Oazair, Don and Yee Hoong. We watched Angels and Demons. it was a good way to de-stress and zone out from the two papers. Then I went to the hospital to visit someone and to my sister's place and then back. Gosh, I'm so full..omg..I think thts all my updates for the time being. Might be slow in updating the next two weeks but I'm sure the next update will be a blast with pictures and all...Till then..ciao~

my love letter to trance

Currently listening to: Stoneface & terminal -Stardust

I truly think trance is my love. You know how you feel when you fell in love? Or met someone you really like. The butterflies in your stomach, your heart skipped a beat, sometimes you have a slight tingle running through ur skin? That is how i feel. You cant stop smiling. That moment is magical. I think when you're in love you're in trance and vice versa..being in a state trance is like being love. Some say love is a drug, I say trance is a drug. I need to find the next high, the next trance. Words fail me on how much I love trance. Every day if i don't listen to trance, I feel not complete. my heart is not complete, my soul is not complete. people fail you, but my trance doesn't. i dunno how to explain when it reaches the trance part..my heart sure skip a bit when i listne to it..and i would like just be still for while.absorbing it all..feeling the sensation. so when people tell me trance is some drug kinda music, i feel sad..its like telling me i'm a drug junkie. i feel sad when ppl associate trance with unethical clubbing culture. they associate be as a clubber cause I love trance. i only go to clubs when international trance djs are here. i dun have a fav club and i dun have a regular club. the reason why i'm so excited bout Freedom is tht its trance djs..Ferry Corsetn, Markus Schulz and Above & Beyond. its like a big romantic date with my trance you know and at the end of the nigth i surely will have a musical orgasm!!...so i'm so in love with trance. it never fails to disappoint me. i love trance...

no life.

currently listening to: gareth emery-exposure

i miss dressing up. i miss putting on my falsies and spending hours on makeup. i miss going out to party. i miss all of it. i miss dancing on the podium..
now when i sleep, i dream of studies. like today during my overslept nap, i was dreaming bout whther possessing pornographic materials is bad character under s98 CJA 2003 cause a friend told me scientifically proven people who wacth porn is more hot tempered. so in my mind was running through the arguments whether possesing porn will have relevance to a rape charge and whther the class of people is large? so i was dreaming bout tht in my mind. so sad right my life?
note: i dun agree watching porn makes ppl more hot tempered. i'm not ashamed i watch porn. i think it's normal for guys to watch it too. i'm not encouraging it but i think its a norm now like how gays are being perceived now (r v thompson)..

moving on to my mundane life, i suddenly crave for the vietnamese chicken salad at delicious. that was a really good salad, very different and tasty. and i'm craving for a cheese cake too, or a strawberry sundae. *hint**hint* lol

thts bout it, dun have much to blog also. since i have practically no life.

i wish

Staring at the top sheet
Listening to my heart beat
Wondering how to say it
Playing over one track
Wanting you to come back
Want to have you here

Lying on a cold sheet
Jump into my car seat
Drive down to the river
Nightlight its reflecting
Somehow I'm expecting
Your voice in my ear

I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the things that you do

Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl

Lying in the long grass
Watching as the clouds pass
Hands held in silence
Your arms right around me
Feeling glad you found me
Feeling like I'm home

Wish you would remember
April to september
Wanting to be near me
Racing for the sunrise
Staring into my eyes
You and I alone

Lay back in my own dreamplayback on a big screen
You and me together
Why give up a love found
Wish that I could write down
What you mean to me

i'm bored

Currently listening to:Cosmic gate-Sign of times

Stuff to do after the big exams:

1. Learn to mix
2. Spring clean my room
3. Manage my trance group seriously
4. Do some writing
5. Get a job back at the firm
6. Go for a holiday
7. Back to the gym

locked and tracked

Currently listening to: ASOT 402

I just got back from my sister's place. Went to there to destress and chill. I usually go there jsut to get away from my house. Just lepak there, watch some astro and talk some stupid stuff..and eat and play with her cat. I finally get to see some light in my trusts subject, tomorrow is evidence and tort for me in the library. On Baby, I'm proud of him, his new show is doing really well with guest mix and all. I love the fact taht he will send me his set for me before his actual show. I'm exclusive cause I get to preview his set first..LOL. Things are pretty much ok I guess. Been studying as hard as I could, just hope I can pass all the subjects, Things are stressed up, my face is breaking out and I don't have time to trim my eyebrows..wtf..but jsut now at my sis's place, she help to pluck my eyebrows while I flipped through the channels. so that's pretty cool. I can't stnad myself having bushy eyebrows for some reason. Maybe cause last time I had bushy eyeborws that now when I looked back, I feel geli..My stuff is piling in my room, books everywhere, notes are eveywhere and I feel kinda scared if I see my books unhighlighted. Just the kiasu in me. My days now are mugging in the library or cafes with Wai Fon and then summore studying at home... Occasional lunches with Baby...then back to studying.. I need to hang in there. And I believe I can do it!!

fml

Currently listening to : Gareth Emery Podcast 76

Totally random, toaaly time wasting cuz I have no life.
If I ever had the guts to tattoo myself I would tattoo this..
Not the words la, just the sillhoutte of Armin or the words : Last night a dj saved my life



On random stuff, I stole this from Alvin's blog. He snapped this while I was already unconcscious in Claire's class. I was exhausted cause since 10am Wai Fon and me were muggin at Starbucks and calss waqs at 6.30pm. FML.


emo

I'm feeling cryptic and confused. It's not funny how trivial things can blow up in my face. Words I used seems to fail me, actions I do gave people the wrong impression. My heart is insecure. Like the test I took, i overthink, overdecipher things. My head is full of what if's and what not. Is it the legal person in me or the trance person in me. With both needs deep discerning of things. Legal is the ability to reason and trance is the appreciation of all the beats. All of that needs focus on something that is not visible.The damage has been done, no amount of words can be used to cure it. It might offer some kinda consolation but it still hurts. I'm lost, for the first time today. Lost on what I want. I can jsut breath a heavy breathe of hesitation and a breathe of frustration. I can blame it on my circumstances but this time I admit my mistakes, I blame myself for my dispositions. Should I trust my heart or my head? I really do not know. People say 20s are the time for mistakes and lessons. Can i just learn the lessons and not make the mistakes? Is it to much for me to ask? My heart is weary and heavy. I'm tired. Everything is silent is my head now. Just the music of trance now in my room. Never did i felt so lost. Once you think you're in a good place, *bam* you're hit with a reality check. I have nothing more to say. Just wish the weight on my heart is gone. I hate this part right here.

i want to live

Currently listening to Tiesto's podcast 107

Things that keep me sane in this tumultuos period of time:

1) HIM
2) Baby- making me smile, making me feel cared , make me feel important, privlieged, exclusive. I *heart* you baby..muahh ( I love seeing you pucking your lips )
3) Friends aka Wai Fon, Yee Hoong ,Brian, Vera..people who kept listening to my rants
4) Sister..helping to de-stress by talking bout crappy people and bitching also
5) Mom- great home cooked food all the time, ginseng in the thermos and herbal teas
6)TRANCE- eventhough I wrote it last, its my life saver. it helps me to distract myself from the whispers in the library, people mumbling and the annoying sounds I hear. trance is my ultimate life saver..if trance were a person, I'll marry the person right here and now and commit myself to Trance. I heart trance, i love trance. trance is MY life.
7) Eclipse mints- lol..the sound of the box, the mints..helps me being awake
In all, I just need a MIRACLE to get through my exams. I pray hard and please pray for me also. When two or more persons join prayer, it will be a stronger prayer..something like that.. I don't exactly remember the memory verse.

thrill of it

Currently listening to - Paul Kalkbrenner -Sky and Sand (Dunugoz vs The roofas Remix)

People will always change. No matter how strongly they believe that they will not. No matter how persistent you tell yourself you're still the same, it is just a lie. but look back, if we never change, we will live in a world like Sesame Street, all happy and innocent. Countless of times I said I've changed, but I noticed people around change also. It is inevitable, it keeps the mundane life of us exciting I guess. We meet new people, we know about ourselves and we learn to embrace the change. Looking back as always, I realised time passed by so fast that in a blink of an eye. I get to know so many people in the past year than the amount of people I known in that 4 lost years. Life is good. But I yearn for more. I plan to do a lot of things, do I have the time? Do I have the opportunity? one thing though..I have to create the opportunites myself. I have to learn to strive for myself. It is not the circumstances but my own dispostions. Being awake in the still of the night, give me a sense of calmness. Just me and my itunes and quite night. Me and my thoughts. Just plain me, myself and I. I am not emo, I am just appreciating the time I have now, reflecting..

ooohh..ahhh...eeee..

Currently listening to : Sander van Doorn vs. Marco V - What Say

Days left, I'm still struggling. Evidence is coming along ok i guess, jsut ned to do some writing. My Pilot pens are runnign out of ink and I don't have a bloody eraser..I lost even more weight!! It's a good thing.. I think by end of this year I'll hit 45 kg..jsut give me a couple of months in the gym and I'll hit my goal weight.Btw the track i'm listening to is spooky..like for halloween but its still trance..cool

I've not much to blog about. I have to go college for evidence tomorrow and stay and mug int he library till night I presume. Or untill my body could not take it.

I've always been a big fan of vocal trance where I can sing my heart out to the beats. I have this tendency to repeat what the voiceovers in a podcast for instance " Trance around the world with Above & Beyond or You're in the mix with Armin van Buuren". I always repeat it to my sister and we both laughed on how accurate I imitate them. Baby's show Sundance is extending to guestmix and he asks me to do voiceover. I'm happy that he asks me to do it and he's using my voice too. not saying my voice damn good la, but at times berangan la jugak nak jadi vocalist( they dun call singers in trance, they call them vocalist)

Baby got an invitation to mix at Maison for the Knight's Castle pre party. It was such a coincident we were both wearing black and I dare say we really looked like a couple. when he was up there, him with the headphones, gosh it definitely turns me on. The moment that melted my heart yet again was when he looked at me and smiled, he gave a me a big smile. I smiled back, proudly. I was with his acquaintances and all of them looked at me when he smiled. I think my heart melted there and then. He looked great on the console..proud of you baby..and even more proud that now you have guestmixes on your show. Maybe one day you'll open for Armin. I'm pretty sure you gonna have the chance. I can imagine two of my most favourite people in the world mixing..I'm happy to do voiceovers every week for you..I'm gonna support you all the way and in trance we trust~Just seeing you up there, makes me really proud. Looking forward to your next gig at Maison. i'm sure it gonna be an uplifting emotional mix.

So that is pretty much it, there are more I want to blog about. It's getting late, morning class tmrw with Rajan. Need full concentration.and I keep forgetting to take pics of Baby and me..

where it all began

Currently listening to : Cosmic Gare feat Aruna- under your spell

Since I got some spare time ..well a just lil spare time before napping and tort later I will dedicate this post to Baby. Cause tomorrow is our 1st month-versary..

Here it is how it all began. Last year I created a group in facebook just for the fun of it, well what bout? Trance of course. It's called Trance Fans in Malaysia. It was inactive cause I did not have time to update it and all. One fine day I received a message on FB from Baby talking about the group. He joined my group obviously. I added him on MSN since we are both big trance addicts. I still remember the first message on msn was not Hi or hello , it was just "ohmna huh?" It was the DJ I was listening to that time and it was on msn" what am i listening to function". then we just get on with our trance conversations on the djs, the beats, the transitions and etc. We kept chatting for God knows how long jsut about trance when suddeny he msn-ned" I'm Danny btw" this is to show how engrossed we are in that subject that we forgot to introduce ourselves. There were also nights we spent time you-tubing links on the trance videos. We then progressed from msns to text msgs and then calls. That was pretty much it, we talk trance everyday even till now. Every single day, I kid you not, there is always the topic that crops up. I think I've grown too hardcore but i'm loving it.

We first met face to face, it was a suprise. It was his birthday on March 12 (yes baby, i rmbr now..not 13 la i know..lol), i wished him Happy birthday strike midnight on that day. the next day I was at college, he texted me said he woulds like to see me to pass me something. Before that he already asked whether i liked cheese cake. He came by college. i was suprised but excited to see him since its our first time meeitng face to face. We initially planned to drop by Sungei Wang for some cds the next day so i did not expect him to came by with short notice to see me the day before. He came by and passed me a piece of cheese cake from Delicious. He looked better from the pictures. He dressed so smartly and he passed me the cake and the brochure for speedzone party that time. Then the next day we went to Sungei Wang for the cds. We had lunch and we listened to each other players, found out even more we had the same trance taste. Following the next few weeks, we had lunches and dinners.

The most memorable day was of course March 21. It was Aly & Fila 's gig at Blanc. Before that day. I as shopping with Baby, we weren't an item yet. I went shopping with him to buy a dress. He told me i look nice in that dress and said he will try to match mine so we look like together as a couple. So on that day itself, after work he went to The Curve to buy a shirt to look nice with me..lol..It was an awesome night. We were together the whole night, him holding my hand and all. He fetched me back eventhough that night I came with my sister. We held hands in the car and that night he lost his voice. I had to put my head closely everytime he talks. When we reach my place, well..sort of expected a goodnight kiss. It was a very very nice goodnight kiss. I would not want to indulge more but all i can sum up that it all started from that kiss. The kinda kiss that gave me butterflies in my stomach. Where you felt that time stops. Well you get what I mean...*blushes*
That was it. That its when Baby stole my heart and caught me under his spell. and now I'm tangled in his web. Corny, cliche. u named it. but i'm not embarassed to tell blog about it.

Time flies by so fast and its a month since it all began. So Baby, we build more memories to come..Happy Month-versary. Hope you like the suprise gift I gave you today..muahhh..

my kinda trance..

just want to share my current obssession:




rambling

Currently listening to: Ohmna feat. Nuralila - Key Of Life (Marlo Remix)

I've been really emo these few days. Felt bad towards Baby that I ranted and emo-ed at him and he still there for me..feel bad la baby..sorry. This week I'm having classes for tort and it is conducted by this UOL lecturer named Simon Askey. He's by far the most funniest lecturer I ever encounted. He's so funny I enjoyed his class. I suck at Tort. Its not that I don't know the law, I have trouble putting it in an organized manner. Ok, this UOL lecturer is way beyond words I can explain how amusing he is. amusing but he teaches us stuff on how to answer. There was this part where he was explaining how he would answer and then after giving and oral answer, he stopped and " So are of you impressed? I'm an examiner and i'm impressed, maybe my answer is a 2:1." His jokes are sarcastic, dry humour but it lightens up the class a lot. when it's time to give break, he said " time for a break. i know i need one, you guys don't need one, you are just sitting there..."and to sum it all at today's class was, he said, "treat your examiners as your enemies and the exams as a war, you don't need to know everything you just need STRATEGY!! and now I want to go home.."
he told us that you don't need to everything, just know how to gather the right law in the right direction. he said when he studied last time he don't read text books, he read articles and try to write them by paraphrasing as if it came from him, he called it 'creative plagiarism'. he jsut amazes me. maybe he is just smart. we have another UOL lecturer, she is funny too, but she is way more serious.
lecturers are getting more amusing when the subject is getting tougher..why???? why makes feel as though the subject is easy but in reality its slaughtering us all?
i feel unprepared and been emo. my friend says "stress, fucks your brain up" and it is now..sigh..
so now this is clearly an emo post. i'm ranting.

for nicer, more happier stuff like TRANCE, the song i'm listening to is awesome..choon..trance..0:57 onwards..goosebumps..nice

as u asked

Currently listening to: Treadstone-Inspirado

I'm slightly bummed that Baby cannot come meet me. He said he would drop by. I miss him and today I'm really bored. I need him to manja with me so I could feel better. Sigh..baby, I even wear striped shirt to match with you...I'm in college now, waiting for class to start in an hour's time. I keep looking out of my college window in hope I would see his car and maybe he just wants to suprise me. He asked me to blog bout it which I'm doing now..he even want me to take pic of myself now and post on my blog. I can't la, where got phone cable? 
I'm not feeling my best cause I'm having this on and off period cramps, drove in the hot scorching sun, the library was packed and I'm tired. the only thing I'm looking forward to was meeting Baby. I miss his smell and I miss talking to him face to face. Me holding his hand in the car and listening to trance together. I was really really looking forward to it. 
I'm so lethargic right now. not really in the mood to do anything. Jsut have to attend class, at leat the lecturer later is funny. at least it helps a tiny wee bit
stress is creeoing up..read tort just now, sort of get it sort of don't. and of all days my player is low batt. i can't study without trance cause the library is kinda noisy, welll not tht noisy but i can't stand ppl whispering to each other. thts y i need trance..
other than tht..i want to be mad at you baby for not coming but i know its work. i'm not mad..just bummed n sad..i miss u so much

semi ranting semi expression

Currently listening to: Snow Patrol -If There's a Rocket Tie Me To It (Marcus Schössow Remix)

Today was quite a hectic day. I don't know where to start but the important thing is that my phone is safe me thanks to honest people in the college..Thanks to Wai Lu, Vickie and Fabian! And I won't forget to thank my Baby( I'm gonna call Danny, "Baby" from now on in the blog, keeps things personal...) I don't want to blog about it cause it's long and just plain annoying how many times my clumsiness and carelessness gets to me sometimes. The lesson learnt is to becareful and never tease people cause in the end you sure kena balik. I'm gonna blog about my second lesson. Like in previous post, Baby and I share lot of similar personality traits, one of them is our clumsiness. (Baby, I know you're reading this and won't admit but the cds I gave you, see how you long tahan and not hilangkan it ok? lol) I sometimes tease Baby the fact that he always forgets whether he locked his car and there were many times we went back and checked cause I also won't notice. There were times when Baby dropped his phone a number of times and today he dropped his new secondary phone for the first time or when he misplaces the mints he bought or he accidentally hit his head against a cupboard. The point is Baby is clumsy at times and he just won't admit it. I teased him and till karma hits me and I left my phone in the library and only realised it an hour later. Cut the long story short, thanks to awesome people, I have my phone back and everything is normal. So now I wil just keep my mouth shut by not teasing anyone anymore. Sorry Baby..we both clumsy together alright?? LOL Thanks Baby by being so supportive and it is not your fault you suprised me at college alright?

On nicer more mushier and lovey dovey post..I went to watch movie with Baby today. "He's just not that into you" this movie really hit hard on people who have been in the dating world, the fact he dos not call or he gives you his card and you call. the mind games guys and girls play,i bet anyone who has been dating can relate to anyone of the characters in the movie. It was a sweet yet truthful movie that shares how people's life can also be interconnected somehow. This is Baby and I's first movie. Peculiar right? We never been to movies cause like I said we have trance dates rather than movie dates. i know I've been blogging a lot about him. It's ust that I have so much things to tell him. Everyday I have stuff to tell him , a new song, how i'm feeling, random stuff I see, things i want to ask him. I don't have enough time and afraid today was the last real date I'm ever gonna have with Baby till after exam...Since Baby is reading my blog, I might as well use this outlet to share my feelings for him also. This blog is very personal to me. I pour my heart and soul here. Funny how blogging was just a past time but now it has become a therapy of some sort, channel to express myself and put myself out there for people to read. I don't know how people judge me but by blogging, I'm not afraid out how people see me. This is ME, no false pretences, no holds barred. Just Alicia Only.

P/s: Baby, thanks for wanting to know me more. you requesting my fav tracks gave me the impression you want to know more about my trance perosnality. and when you listened to it and I asked you, so did you get it? did you get my trance? you said yes and explained the beats that I liked. I smiled but deep down my heart smiled too. Baby, go find the lyrics to Cosmic Gate feat Kyler England- Flatline..

love is senseless without u

Currently listening to: Sundance Episode #03 with Danny Oh

Yeah..It's Danny's mix. I like his mixes..my kinda trance. I'm taking a break from cleaning up my room. I still yet to iron my clothes though. I finally found a trance album which is equivalent to love songs kinda album. It's Cosmic Gate's new album Sign of times. It has romantic lyrics about LURVE and sultry voices. I tell you, once this vocalist Aruna sings, I can turn gay that instance *snaps fingers*.

Danny came back from his business trip and met up with me as soon as he reach KL sentral. 5 days away seems so long..*blush* and he bought me a heart shaped chocolate. First time someone bought me chocolates. When I called him from Starbucks KL Sentral, he was still in KLIA...he was like kena tangkap basah like tht..he said..Baby..why u reach so fast..i'm buying something. lol..then when he reached he passed me that chocolate. It's the thought that matters that he would stopped by and bought me the heart shaped chocolate. We only met for few minutes literally..he was rushing but him wanting to meet ..I'm happy. I feel wanted.

Yea it is the first time I received chocolates. allan the ex did not give me romantic pressies..he say he not romantic wo. So I was realy really happy and touched. Thanks Baby!! muaahh

The more we get to know each other the more similarites we have with each other. Not just trance. like how we always forget where we put our CDS. I remember when he share with me the cds, its the same like how it treat my cds..lol..the flaps are not tucked in and some cds are in other covers. We like to eat the same food and we like our lattes. I'm just trying to convert him to Starbucks person not Coffee Beans. Something which is still hard..hmmm..he never knew how vanilla latte is that heavenly yet.

Cheesy and corny. Pardon me for feeling so smitten with him. He makes me happy. Seeing him makes me smile and being with him is so comforting. There are many little things he does that I find it every endearing. Makes me feel cared...very very much. I so know ur reading this baby..muaahh..
Love this pic.

Eat my heart out

hmmph

Currently listening to : Dj Tatana -Sometimes (Matt Cerf dub)

I was reading till 3 am on my bed. Highlighting n scribbling on my Penner book. My eyes start to give way and I put my books away. fluff my pillow and turn off the lights. Right before I slept, my sub conscious mind was asking..hmm what did u read jsut now? I was thinking hard about a case. I just read it like 15 minutes ago. I keep trying to rember to fucking case (pardon my profanities..i use profanities to emphasis the importance of tht case..like how i curse the Vandervell case) I was already on my bed trying to sleep, but my mind would not let this matter rest. I had to get out of my bed, turn on the light and read the case again before I sleep. its the damn fucking Watt v Girdlestone and Shepard v Moules. the point is, that this how my mind works everyday. I read in the car during the jam too. When in social discussions my mind will start to churn out legal matters to apply. This is exactly how I was last year. Applying legal stuff every day. It's sucking out my life from me. Slowly, I'm agitated. Grumpy and annoyed that the stress is creeping up.

...

Currently listening to: Gareth Emery - Exposure

Stressed. I know I have said it many times but now its really on to me. day and night , night and day its notes and articles and more books. Each day I hoard books and file to the library cause sure can't study at home. I'm stressed but it hasn't reach my maximum level yet. Last year in intermediate there was a point I almost threw up in the midlle of the night reading the articles due to stress. I cried and could not sleep. I think this vicious cycle is starting all over again.

Note to self: Party's over, back to reality, just deal with it!!

speezone more like saunazone

Currently listening to - Rex Mundi feat Susana -nothing at all

It's been years since i've been to a concert, the last one was Jay Chou concert couple years back. Yesterday I had the taste of a rave party. Who else would I be going with than Danny? I went to Speedzone F1 party and was looking forward for it for months. Speedzone was held at KL tower featuring big names such as Paul Oakenfold, Judge Jules, Tall Paul and many more.

I was excited when I reached the entrance and loving the Red zone i think. I feel it's big and its spacious unlike the Speed Arena where its tented up like an oven. It's so freaking hot. its like sauna. Due to the heat I couldn't really enjoy. Oakenfold was not that bad but Judge Jules was techno-ish..damn..i had to get out of there and join Ricky Stone at the other arena. Managed to reach there and he played two new tracks. Transitions by him was bad, and the mixes were jsut so so. but got to choose that over Judge Jules at tht time. There were fireworks and it was an awesome setting, the lights and stage is so choon.


Danny was with me most of the time. Not all the time la cuz I wanted to go cool myself and wouldn't be fair for music lover like him to teman me and all. We camwhored the whole night and being with him the whole night listening to EDM was very very romantic. ignore the sweat and the heat, I just love being next to him. I was driving and he gave me directions, he always like to tease me when giving me direction, make me so tensed up when driving but in a cute funny way. I jsut love how caring he is with me.. texting me when i was at the other stage, making sure i'm ok. buying water and was there for me. i felt pampered...thanks baby~

oh yeah..i feel he damn funny n cute when he tag himself at the pics of the stage with the djs..hardcore~

and i won't see him for a week. he's going for business trip and i'm so gonna miss him. no wake up calls n suprise lunches..baby...miss u already


not gonna blog more..let the pics do the talking


















evidence and land..

Currently listening to: Vast Vision feat Fisher- Everything (Aly & fila Remix)

Section 118 PACE 1984. excited utterance or res gestae. I'm tendering my hearsay evidence now under this exception. I just witnessed a roadrage incident right in front of me. I am a witness to a crime and I'm genuinely scared at that moment.

I'm tendering this evidence to prove the matters stated and therefore it hearsay. I was driving with my family and was to turn in to the road leading my house. It was very jammed means it is super easy turn in to that junction as there is a yellow box. I was behind the lorry and suddenly it stopped. I saw there was a motor speeding already and assume it would stop at the yellow box as all the cars alrady stopped. No he didn't, he kept on moving when the lorry was turning in and ther lorry braked. I braked too. The motor and the lorry guy got into a fight and and the motor then went off but in that split second the lorry guy open his door and the door hit the motor guy and he almost lost his balance. then he continue pushing the motorcyclist. At that instance I locked my car terus and turned and overtook the lorry. My mum kept looking back and said the lorry guy use something ot continue hitting that guy. I sped off. I actually wanted to horn the lorry but I didn't. I think if I did. that guy would come and beat me up also..phew~

Now my mind is ovewhelemed with this dramatic event and there is no possibility of disotrion and concoction. DAMN, it was a scary experience and why people resort to this kinda anger. If the guy murdered the motorist, he can't even argue provocation as no reasonable man would react this way. sigh. people. times like this i wish i was still a kid..living innocently and not witness all this violence.

so this is the higlight of my day. pretty mundane. studied in the library then back to dinner. while eating all those stuff i read was floating in my mind. it was like s141,142 LPA, benefir,burden,spencer,deed,legal,prity,touch n concern, reference to the subject matter of the lease, s77, para 20 sch 12, indemnity, AGA, s3, s8 s28(1) LTCA, forfeiture, release ..sigh..i can't even eat a decent meal without all this stuff in my mind

stressed...

revolving doors

Currently listening to: Danny's birthday mix

I'm not being bias but this trance mix that Danny made , the opening is so damn euphoric. So relaxing and uplifting. Its just inspires me to blog. I just finish watching some series and of course there are always the relationship drama going on. I'm happy but stressed. It's not a good combination. I went to class today, birght and early and was concentrating but till he reaches the leasehold covenants part, I was lost. Really really lost and I went back and had a really nice nap.
I never really Sunday nights, I don't know why. At least tomorrow I might go karoke with my brother and sister and sing my heart out. Planning to go college and mug in the library yet again. I find it very fulfiling like I got something done in the library. I have many chapters left for each topic and it's just pure mugging and writing from now onwards.

Listening to the opening now, I want to fly away to somewhere like a beach. Lie down on the beach and soak up the sun, listening to the waves. i need to de-stress.

I'm loving the new jeans, goes well with heels,pumps and sandals. It fits me perfectly too. I think that is all I have for this wet Sunday evening. Time to go for a nice shower and then conquer leasehold covenant.

update

Currently listening to: Sander van Dien-Aurora

March really flies by so quickly. So many things had happen, and it has been a good month. Exactly a year ago, March was a nightmare for me. I watched my uncle dying on the bed and it was heart wrenching, then the funeral and the next coupl eof weeks was post traumatic stress disorder due to the breakup. A year ago, at nights like this, I was crying and sobbing and blaiming myself. I was a wreck. I was at my worst.

Now a year later, I'm feeling confident of myself. I don't want to be perasan but I've taken really good care of myself compared to last time. I dress myself better now ( i think la) and keeping myself well presented at all times. I went to buy new pair jeans( ok not really I bought but Danny paid for it..thanks Baby..) cause all my jeans even the altered onese are so damn loose. I lost another 2 inches and am confident that I lose another 2 more. I bought 2 pair of skinnies, something which I would never dreamt of wearing a year ago. Now i'm eyeing on heels and tops. Like those off the shoulder tops, the frilly ones..but I have to stop shopping ady cause I'm broke and exams are near.

Speaking of exams, its like 50 days left and I've yet to cover the topics. Damn shitty. I'm stressed on Land Law now and Tort. Trust is getting better and so is Evidence for some strange reason. The thing is I've been going to college early, meet Danny for lunch then continued till night mugging books in the library. I just hope it pays off and I'll remmeber the cases and all. I'm very very tired. I have lots to read and I don't have time. Too many temptations.

I had a busy week. Every night i'm back around 9-10 pm and the dinner is cold and I have to reheat it. The house is quiet cause my parents are in their room already. Every thing is so quiet, its lonely. It was came to my mind, is this my life? I mean when I start to work and move out? I'll be home to an empty house, cook dinner, run errands and all. Is this what adulthood have to offer me? the only that I'm excited about the working life is the freedom I get and the partying. Other than that I just wish I'm backpacking somewhere and enjoying life. I'm just stressed.

I switched of my lights for an hour and happy that Danny did that too. I'm turned on by him who is cautious about this kinda thing. Hmm..like charity or environmental things. It shows to me he care not only about himself and not ignorant. Danny did accompanied me to do volunteer work today and its nice. Doing something different and for a good cause. Very sweet of him to teman me..

There are many little things that Danny do for me that makes me like him even more. How he would suprise me in college and take me out for lunch. The way he looks at me while I'm ordering food and the way he would always offer me his food everytime. H'e s just a sweet and caring man and he's mine..haha*smitten*

So that's my update for this weekend. Tomorrow teh Land class is in the morning. hate morning class..

take me away~

Currently listening to : Danny's mix of vocal trance for ME!!

I'm usually not a morning person. I just don't like waking up in the morning with an alarm. My idea of sleep is waking up without any need of an alarm. But now, I've been waking up earlier before noon. It's an accomplishment cause my mornings will usually start in the afternoon. After 12 everyday for the past few weeks.

But since I've met Danny, I've been waking up early. He would give me a very personal wake up call. I would tell him I want to wake up at 9.15am in time for class at 10am. Being a caring person he is to know that I'll be inenvitably later he will call at 8.50 am and I will wake up and go straight to shower only to realise that I still got time. He will wake me up with a a sweet "Good morning baby!!" We will talk about 10 minutes or so and I'll be awake that instance exception for this morning due to the fact its raining heavily I continued to sleep..So I have a personal wake up call from him till my body clock is adjusted to waking up early and sleeping way before 3 am. Which is a good thing.

Today I found out something new about him, the fact that he volunteers like me too. I'm secretly turned on in a way to find that we have more similarities then just trance. While I was in college studying, he text me to wat to sync any radioshows together. He called me and make sure we are on sync, both of us saying 1 2 3 and counting the seconds to make sure its sync...damn cute!! He's the only person whom I met like me who has only trance in their mp3 players and we have the same radioshows too on our players. We would listen to the radioshow together as if were live and text each other on the songs. So connected through trance. Not a day goes by without trance in our conversations. We have so much to talk about besides that and we can text and talk the whole day. I'm happy. He puts a smile to my face everytime...

I know this post may sound corny but that is how smitten I am right now~

Baby this post is for you..

Baby, this is for u.

Currently listening to : Above & beyond Trance Around the world 260

This post is especially dedicated to someone special. It is also for me to express how I feel and finally be able to blog about it.

I've always be raving about my love for trance and how trance changed my life. From an emo person who lingers on to the past to a whole new me. Trance brought a lot of changes to my life and the greatest change it brought to me so far is leading me to meet someone special whom now is my boyfriend. *GASP* *OMG* maybe your reaction now. Yes, yours truly here now is attached.

We confessed our liking to each other in a club when Aly & Fila was here. How much more romantic can it be? It's not the club that is romantic but he told me he like me when trance was playing and subsequently I told him I like him too when my favourite trance song was playing. What could be more romantic then a confession on a trance night? There was this one time he mixes a 2 hour vocal trance set for me. I was so terharu cuz it consists of all my favourite songs and to know its exclusively for me makes it even more special. I love it when we sync and listen to songs together.

I always longed for someone to understands me especially my crazy addiction to trance. I longed for someone who appreciates trance like I do and when I talk about a certain song, he just knows which part I like and we clicked. Besides the trance blood running through our veins, I feel comfortable with him, talking to him about a lot of other things. He brings me out to eat and never fails to order for me good food. I'm scared I'm gonna be fat and eventhough we just knew each other, I just feel at ease with him. We spend our nights msn-ing each other and you-tubing trance tracks. We talk about DJs and events, he brought me Dj mags for me to browse and intro to me some awesome choon tracks that are my taste. Now I think of it, we did not go foron dates like the usual course of things, ie movies and all. We have trance dates!! LOL. I'm sure some of you would see how much passion I have for trance now huh and to have a person with the same passion as me its all jsut too good to be true.

I know its new, but I'm loving every second of it. I told him I'm gonna blog about him and he's paiseh about it. Maybe in due time I'll share more about him, for starters his name is Danny and he is now mine.

If given the chance I want to blog all about him, but its still very new this relationship we have now. I want to post a picture of us also but slowly la huh?

So wish me happiness alright!! xoxo.



Aly & Fila..or maybe just fila

I think my toes are broken, my hair still smelled of smoke and I only have a couples hour of sleep ahead of me. But it was all worth it. Aly & Fila is superbly awesome. Bit too fast at times but all the songs I wanted him to play was fulfilled. The warm up by DJ Evo was sufficient to boost up the crowd's mood by playing the favourites. To make it an even better night, I bet with my friend and won a speedzone ticket. We were betting what song Aly & Fila gonna play and all...
I was up on the podium once again dancing away. I shouted till I no more breathe and it was another awesome trance night.
I din bring camera but there are limited pictured that will uploaded soon. Hmmm..maybe klubbers.net have my picture since I was actively on the podium..lol
There is something I don't get, we were given 2 free drinks with the choice of beer and soft drinks. But some how or rather some people was drunk and vomitted and passed out. I was like wtf? unless u order hard liquor la..but really the crowd this time was a mixture of hardcore trance fans like me and kids (due to the fact entry is for 18 and above) thus there were drunken people on the florr and shufflers..for God's sake? shufflers on a trance?? disaster!! I only drank half a bottle of beer and a glass of coke the whole night.
it was a nice night, i met some other trance kakis and everyone seem to know each other and it was a great experience.
so i guess i will see them in Speedzone next month..

crazy happy potato

Currently listening to: The Thrillseekers Feat. Fisher "The Last Time" (Club Mix)

Sipping a cup of hot teh tarik and eating a piece of freshly baked orange sponge cake. So nice. Listening to trance. total relaxation. Just a few minutes more back to evidence mugging. The classes are intense. Lots of memorising. Today at one point I could not take the it anymore, I went out to take my own break of 15 minutes. something that i never done before thoruhgout my classes since intermediate. normally will be toilet breaks, but I jsut went outside, look out the window and just relax for a while.
It's been raining everyday. It makes everything looks gloomy and depressing sometimes. Everybody is tired and tensed. Library is full and once you stepped into colelge it is inevitable from all the faces exams are creeping near.
I'm so busy, I don't have time to buff my nails or even put on a mask. Laundry is piled up and I have to resort to wear a Sbux tee shirt to college and to make things worse the weather makes it impossible to do any laundry.
Apart from all that stuff, I'm just getting more and more excited for this friday. will update soon.